yes she's a "lady". But being a lawyer and all, would she risk coming in here? Yet if she sent someone seems it would be a man. Hope whomever it was found nothing incriminating.
You funny M. I don't know why money is such an important factor. Anyone would want to come stay in my house and take care of these picky little troubles. Who wouldn't want to? It's healthy, sanitary, safe. And there's cats. c'mon. Who could resist the cats?
Thanks Jeff. It went really well. He called and said he was out front, he expected me to come out with the mail, but I invited him in. Couldn't tell if he noticed the clean house, but that's better than noticing a mess. I had him come into the basement to identify his remaining iitems. He'll come back for that. :-D He left, than came back cuz he forgot the box of his son's toys I'd given him. I took it out to him and then we talked for nearly an hour. He talked about his work project and his sisters and his Mom's health problems. I told him I miss them and if he doesn't mind passing on a greeting from me. He asked where my D is. He asked where I found an apartment, so I did end up telling him some of the troubles I've been dealing with in the house and with the slum lord this summer. I didn't let on that I'm stressed or really how bad it is, but instead used some humor. I told him I was considering rent to own properties and he was very enthusiastic about that idea, even suggested a few places nearby that I should look at. Overall I smiled a lot. He scarcely made eye contact, but when he did I felt the connection. When I realized how long we'd been talking, I decided to cut it off so I said I had to get my day going. He was getting in his car and I reached an arm out just towards him, placed it on the car - like a pat goodbye to the car. When I was doing that he was lifting his face, I swear he was going to kiss me. Maybe I read that wrong, but I think he thought I was reaching for him and he really looked like he was ready to make lip contact. I just smiled. And I told him "don't worry about my troubles. I am good and everything is fine." Despite knowing that went well, I came in and cried.
Wanted to escape to the beach today, but the hurricane has created dangerous rip tides and no one's getting in the water today. Wish I were at work where it's air conditioned after all. No apartments to see until tonight.
Oh forgot to mention my "secret weapon". I wore the scent I was wearing when I met him, and that I wore the first several months we started dating. I doubt that he'd notice or remember, but scent has a powerful effect on the brain so I hope it triggered fonder memories of me when our r was new and full of hope. I think I've successfully begun to process of being his friend. That's where this has to start if it's going to work. So why am I crying then.
Because we are past the process of being friends, and have to fake it. You want to be more than friends. Understandable.
But I think it is good what you are doing and how you are handling things. If this happens again where he says he cannot show up, just say oh were you going to stop by? Oh yeah, I forgot. Well okay...
Be a little flip, a little forgetful, and show him life goes one w/o him (even if it doesn't lol).
((((hugs)))))
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
The tenant above me just moved out today. The tenant on top floor, the "dumper" wanted to see the electric box in basement so he came down and played around with the switches. He may have been on a scouting mission for LL. ? Anyway, house is clean and all my things in basement are organized nicely. Basement reeks of mold/mildew and he started sneezing when he was down there. So if he harbored any notion that my pets are what stink in the basement as was their initial complaint, then he has to realize whats up. He called the LL a wicked person and said she's evil. I kept my mouth shut. I don't trust him. Just a couple months ago he was leaving bizarre racial messages at my door and pooping on the roof of my sunporch. Now he's trying to act like my ally against the evil LL. I don't buy it. Anyway, if he assumed the problems in basement were being caused by my pets, then he now knows different. He asked whose stuff is all this? I showed him the area where my things were neatly stored and then explained that everything else was abandoned items LL left behind when she moved. So if she's been complaining to him that I have the basement full of garbage, like she's trying to tell me, then he has now seen the real story. He looked around at it all and shook his head. I showed him where black mold is growing in a few places, and where the water is running in from. Looked at 2 places this a.m. Continues to be discouraging. The 2nd place turns out to be a place I looked at in June. I recognized it when I pulled up. Funny, it looks much better to me now than it did then since I've seen so many worse places. It's a good price for the size. But it isn't home. See some more this afternoon.
Thinking about the xbf more than I should. Was so good to see him. Hopefully he's thinking a little about me too. I know we have the one huge fundamental difference - I love pets, he hates pets. But we were quite compatable on nearly all else. Maybe the pets issue is just too much for him, but I remain hopefull that in time we can be in a relationship with seperate apartments. Meanwhile..... can't afford to spend too much time in fantasy dreamland. Must get back to reality at hand.
