thanks for your heart of reinforcement Kevin ...through Christ's love we are bonded. appreciate your sharing ..and spoon feeding me my rejoice m.m. ..haven't checked my em for it ...to crippled in a multitude of ways and have been.
hi there stuck. your visit is greatly appreciated as is the caring nature intertwined with it. And most of all as are the prayers!!!
I guess either in my often used semi-indirectness to responses (which is true on here at times as well as in RL ..just ask my one-time W) i either failed to adeqautely calrify things or else maybe my peculiar style of conversing hindered your seeing it and I did put it out there.
Nonetheless it gives me the chance to practice being better at answering direct q's with direct responses ..........maybe.
Is she still home?
Her and I have not had a shared home now for a couple of years. Over the 6 + or so years that our earthly M lasted before it was penned out of existence (lol)I provided about 3 places for us to live no fewer then 2 times did she walk right out of them and the M. So hard to say if I was at present providing a place for us to live jointly that my results would be any better. It is her claim that among the varied and assorted reasons for why she dumped me and our M was because I didn't provide any kinda stable home or environment ..uh huh.
and so as to finsish up my direct responses to your q's, in time for the closing of the library in 1 min. She is at her "home" or her room I am sure ..which is provided to her by her forst H who she considers to be like just immediate family. there co-parenting was exemplary and there R is platonic. Lastly we currently have zero contact as of Sat afternoon when she TM me after the latest thermo-nuclear meltdown .."Sty out of my life completely please t"
meanwhile I have been trying to purchase a first home for us/me ....who on earth knows.
Wow that's quite a bomb. I thought that after you and her had made up that she moved back with you. I guess that got lost in the shuffle.
Hang in there though. Do you think her first H could be trying to get back with her? Just being a realist.
Sorry again for the pain you are going through.
hey stuck ..what is with you and your q's? were you this way from birth or just more recently? ..haHa.
She was shotgun M'd to him over 20 years ago and I have knon him ever since I first met my W cuz she was living there at the time too. At every turn she has ada mantly stated that they got M'd at the Justice of the P just for family formality and while she has done more than jer fair share of "truth bending". I do not count that among them.
Plus she openly told me in the last month that my competion would npt be from him, she has always thought that I bring him up too much and that makes me suspicious of their R, but rather from the ...eeahh hmm "co-worker".
and btw didn't you see the sign on the door .."No Realists" permitted. It is really easy to go overboard with that stuff and in so doing to erode faith and the all -powerful mighty hand of God.
Peter began sinking and would have had to be scraped up from the bottom of the lake if Christ had allowed his realism to send him to his intended place.
what, the "stay out of my life completely t" ....? I am so used to these expressions that I oughta to be able to say that it's water off a ducks back. which is sad to almost be able to say. trouble is that while a very small part of me recognizes the distinct possibility that it is just a part of the pattern that she has used all along (especially limiting it to TM rather than talking to me), it would seem that the greater part of me has what remains of my heart completely exposed to her ....abuse of my heart ..for lack of a better term.
Originally Posted By: stuck
I thought that after you and her had made up that she moved back with you. I guess that got lost in the shuffle.
I had an apartment (a rather roomy 3 bdrm place ...kinda carrot and stick sorta thing) that I was in from 8/08 - 5/09. And she would often come over there but only for the longest stretch of maybe like a week ..never moved in ...partly cuz she was out of work and not receiving a paycheck and would then feel like an imposition ..or something. That coupled with the "let's just take things nice and slow" concept. Meanwhile, in living under the ex's roof she was equally "imposing" just the same over there.
Originally Posted By: stuck
Hang in there though. Do you think her first H could be trying to get back with her?
while I already commented a bunch on this in a previous one, i just had a little more to add. Obviously any R or feelings for a person can be one-sided. Don't ask me how I or anybody else around here would know of this ..almost lol. So that distinct thought has been on and off my mind for quite some time as it pertains to the dynamic between her and her ex. But even at that it is not too heavy a thing on my mind. I know that she only speaks for her and her feelings and in doing so I feel pretty solid that she is telling the truth. He is a nice guy a few years older than W but he is a workaholic at the complete and total expense of any personal life. And what personal life he has is kinda typified by listening to old show tunes and movies circa 1950..which my W detests. Well she detests more things than not but that is a whole nother dealy.
Originally Posted By: stuck
Sorry again for the pain you are going through.
thanks for the condolences. But whatever pain that I am surely experiencing is not of the magnitude of that which my W is. Mine is limited to my heart. Her's is more far reaching than that. In a nutshell ..she is not comfortable in her own skin and I don't think she has ever been. She is caught up in the world and all it's deceit. That's enough on that.
preparing for another empty dismal w/e. that is if I ever finsihed with my job. sure would be nice if this three hour delay on the flights would get resolved anytime soon. hope nobody's got anything too important in terms of overnight packages/letter ..usually not on Sats though.
here I go with my w/e ...shaping up to be a real ..well i am sure it will be like the bunch of days leading up to it ....sheer emptiness. fresh off a phone call the first since blowup #_______ fillin the blank.
