You're right - the old M25 would have avoided it and just hoped things kept moving in a positive direction.
During our conversation on Wednesday, he said to me this is not the right way to say this but you're my best option. He also said something about not knowing what could happen a year or five years from now. I think he was trying to protect himself a bit.
That's why I really need to hear where his head is tonight. I will NOT be someone he just settles for or that he's resigned himself to the fact that it's in his best interest to stay with me right now. I'm only interested in staying with him if he sincerely wants to work on our marriage, fall back in love, and have a great life together. I deserve nothing less!
During our conversation on Wednesday, he said to me this is not the right way to say this but you're my best option. He also said something about not knowing what could happen a year or five years from now. I think he was trying to protect himself a bit.
Yeah - and I love how he knew it was not the right way to say it but said it anyway! There was that disclaimer before he said it - I know this isn't going to sound right...
So you can see why I'm interested in hearing where his head is at? He said all kinds of positive things as well don't get me wrong - all the positive changes I've made, he wants us to get organized (home and finances), he wants us to have fun together, etc.
That's why I'm cautiously optimistic. I think he'll find that I meant what I said - I'm not willing to go back to the way things were before. I also expect to see him making positive changes as well. This will not work if I'm the only one making positive changes. Oh yeah - I called him Thursday night but did not call on Friday. I thought if he really wants to talk to me he can call. He's not going to see my fall over him!
OK - he worked late yesterday trying to get some jobs out the door. So our evening was rather short. Was more interested in ML than talking. When I did try to bring it up - he said can't we just let it lay for awhile - we both know what we need to work on. I said what do you think you need to work on? - he just said it's late I'm too tired to have a two-hour conversation now.
He knew I was not happy about it. He was out the door early this morning - this is going to be stressful week for him at work so we'll see. My birthday is Thursday so it will be interesting see how that goes.
Don't worry I'm not letting him off the hook. Just need to find the right time to have the discussion. I'm standing firm with what I posted yesterday!
Try not to "peek" at him too much. Look INWARD, at yourself, and your own changes . . . "nose to the grindstone, shoulder to the wheel" kinda mentality. Then just occasionally peek up outta your little prairie dog hole to see how he's doing.
You want to convey an air of "Hey, mister, I'll be fine either way."
- Puppy, who wonders how those prairie dogs get those grindstones and wheels down their tiny little holes . . .
No new news. Although it's pretty interesting. He's going out of his way to let me know after he's been on the phone who he was talking to, trying to really watch his short temperedness -it's a start. He worked until 8 pm last night so both of us have just been too tired to get into any kind of conversation.
Tomorrow is the big test - my birthday. We'll see what happens!
