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(((BND))) I bet your D13 likes her "new" room now. I hope the unemployment and house rehab funds come through for you, and you hear about a job soon. Thinking of you.

Hey people...

I guess the purpose of this thread has been a little lost due to my pity party....

In some ways post the realities of my life to basically show that even when they do come home, we still need to learn how to deal with the day to day issues.

Partly due to my own personal anxiety disorder, I tend to stress and worry way more then my Husband.

I was taking meds but really can't afford them anymore so I am trying to go to the gym more, and finding things to keep my anxiety at bay.

He is much more laid back about finances and things that matter.

He tells me to be patient and wait ........Not my strong point!

Blech!!!

I also know that once I hear back about the Unemployment, the roof grant and the Mortgage Modification I will feel much better.

It is very hard to know that all of these things are HUGE issues and totally out of my control.

I got a call yesterday from Unemployment. They are sending some paperwork to verify my employment with my last job. This makes me so nervous as I have no clue as to what they will tell them.

I vent here more then I do at home.

I don't tell him that we have these financial issues because of his bad choices, or that he caused this mess to happen.

I don't throw the past in his face because it serves no purpose to do that.

I do get angry at times when I think about what we had and how we have to struggle now.

And then when I am on my face praying I am reminded about how many things I have been blessed with.

My children and their health especially.

That we have a restored Marriage.

My Husband has a job.

Our cars run.

We have a beautiful home, even with a bad roof!

I guess that is part of life just putting things into perspective and letting the little things go.

I am trying to get there......

One day at a time.

Nice to have YOU back.....:)

Hey People....

Doing another decorating project, and it is keeping me busy.

I am painting D13's bedroom.

I wallpapered the bottom half with a textured wallpaper. The painted it raspberry pink. The top part is cream colored.

Then I will attempt to make a chair rail and stain it the same color as the rest of the wood.

It's bright and cheery and she is very happy.

Not too much has changed since I last posted.

I am still waiting for something to happen in regards to our finances and the grant and the unemployment situation.

The kids last day of school is the 18th.......

And my Husband will be going on a business trip for a couple of weeks this month.

I am hanging in there, just anxious and stressed about things I can not control.

Please keep me in your prayers....

(((((hugs)))))

Painting is an excellent way to relieve the stress.

Yep, you are definitely anxious over things you cannot control. Drop the rope and when you do this, things will fall into place.

I finally got a call about the roofing grant.
Next Tuesday I will be getting an inspection from the "big boss".

I could definately use some prayers........that everything will just fall into place.

So at least I know my application isn't sitting in a pile on someones desk and things are slowly moving in a positive direction.

I also got a call from the unemployment office, and they had to ask me some questions regarding my claim. Their next call was to my previous employer. I was told I would receive a letter next week letting me know of their decision.

Now I am waiting for one more call from the Mortgage modification people.....

I am breathing...................

Praying for you... (((BND)))

Definitely prayers going your way!!! You will be fine!!!

Your in my prayers also.

You are on my prayer list, BND. And fingers crossed to for good measure.