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What a lame weekend. I got a lot done, built a new bench for the greenhouse (Power tools are a girls best friend!), went into work for a little while today, there was a big peice of paper in my cubicle on the wall and one on my computer saying that my office had been reserved for someone else who starts 29 june! Its my office! How can it be reserved for someone else?! Its been my office for 2 years! WTH? It was sunday afternoon, so I cant talk to anyone until tomorrow.

I made an appt for the vet to come next weekend to put my dog to sleep. So, when I saw the note in my office I lost it. Bawling in the Fish and Wildlife office. Luckily I was all by myself in there. It was just kind of the straw that broke the camels back.

Im trying to stay upbeat and just spoil my dog rotten for the next week, just enjoy the time we have, but seriously, when H left I was sad, but this is so much more painful. And planning it just makes it seem surreal. I know that this is the time and I dont want her to get sicker, but oh god this is hard.

This has been giving us something to really talk about, to maybe become closer, but honestly, I am so angry with him. If he hadnt done those things he could be here with me supporting me through this. If he wanted to be here for her, then he shouldnt have left us!

Blue,

I'm really sorry about your dog. Mine means the WORLD to me, and is getting old too, and I know that day will come for us as well. Try to enjoy your time with him/(her?) this week.

Puppy

Thanks Puppy. Im just spoiling her rotten and trying to have fun.

I have been questioning my decision so much, I wish that he could be here to see her and help me make this choice. I still think that its the right call, but I just wish that he was here.

Well, My dogs doctor called me friday night and said that she has been taking a class on chinese herbal medicine. She wants to try it on my dog, so we are giving her 2 more weeks to see improvement. She thinks that the herbs are treats, just loves them, so I guess thats good news.

I told H about it and he seemed really relieved too. My week was just such a roller coaster! It feels strange to finally be settling down again. I have to remember to stay realistic about this though.

I leave for 3 days for work tomorrow, I feel kinda bad leaving her here, especially with the new regime of medication! But I think that shell be fine. My dad takes care of them when I have to take off, and he does a great job.

I feel like H has cooled a bit. Just fewer texts and shorter ones when he does write. I am trying to remind myself that I wasnt supposed to get too excited. But still I feel him pulling away again. I guess that I just need to have faith and remember to not pursue!

I am having a hard time pulling back now. H isnt texting me as often, and when he does his answers are short and to the point. I know that I need to stop trying to initiate contact, but it doesnt make it any easier to do so. If it doesnt seem like he wants to talk then I wont push him to.

Well, I was more hopeful for my M than I have been in a long time when I started this thread. The a few weeks ago I finally mustered the courage to ask him whats up with his distance and the sudden lack of contact. He said he is having doubts. That he is confused. We didnt talk much for a little while, then over the last week or so hes been a lot more talkative. No more talk of R. He initiates all contact.

It has gotten so tough to keep up my attitude, I didnt have to put any effort into it before, I guess its getting easier. Im tired. I got to finally stop worrying for about a month and then it was over. He didnt even give us a month of trying. I dont know what to do now. I think that hes becoming a little more friendly again, and this is how it started last time when he said he wanted to try again, but I just dont know anymore.

Hi, Blue,

Thanks for stopping by my place. I read through a bit of your sitch just now. Like all of us, stay strong and hang in there!

Dia

Thanks Dia.

I just called the phone coaching line and found out that I still have one session left. I dont think that right now is the right time to use it, so Ill just keep it in mind. No new changes. H still talks to me, less and less now though. I sent him a message about how frustrated I was and called him a coward, oops hehe. He actually seemed to respond to it! The details are in my infidelity thread.

We talk just a few times a week now, instead of every day. So, who knows, maybe I dont belong in piecing anymore!