Divorcebusting.com Forums Open Forums Infidelity/Extramarital Affairs/Jealousy I've come full circle #26

So I suppose for now I will have to suck it up. I was upset for just a bit and the girls didn't seem to notice but S13 did and just kept rubbing my arm until I calmed down.

I know that I can't protect them from everything but gee, I sure want to protect them from this. As you all know I haven't been with anybody and part of that is teaching my kids what is right. Time will heal everything but what about my kids thoughts on their Dad?

kat

What do your kids say about their dad? Do they realize he's just a self-centered you know what?

I never had to go through that, but OW was around my kids most of the time when they were with H for a couple months. I honestly believe at some point your H will regret this if he ever has any common sense return (did he used to have some?). I also believe this R isn't going to work for him, so at some point, it'll fall apart. I mean if he couldn't work out an R with you what chance does he have with a 100% skank? She's such trash to do that. Karen

My d10 was telling me that skank was telling her daughter something and she was just thinking to herself how great her own Mommy is and glad that she didn't have to listen to her!! The oldest 3 are loosing almost all of there feeling for him. The only one that wants to be with him is D8. She wants her Daddy home where he belongs!

She understands that he doesn't live here and won't be back but that doesn't mean that she can't hope. I said something about flirt guy yesterday and D8 thought I was talking about my Dad!!(They have the same name) She is just too funny and cute.

kat

My nerves are starting to get to me. Tomorrow is the day. The distraction of driving an hour first helps but I have been queasy all morning today. Tomorrow will be worse.

I am trying not to think about it. I don't have anyone that I can just spill my guts to at the moment so here I am. Aren't you guys lucky?

I still haven't been able to figure out what is going on with the washer. It went on the fritz on Sunday. It is only 4 years old!! With 5 people, we do at least a load a day. So it is starting to become an issue. Maybe I can deal with it when I get back home tomorrow.

Thanks for letting me vent.

kat

No need to apologize to me!!! I'm sorry you're going through this. It's going to get way better after this right? I may be offline for a couple days (need to find out which cable company works in the country), but will check on you as much as I can. You can always call to. Things should be less crazy (I hope) tomorrow, just starting the new job. Karen

Thank you! Yes, I think a lot of stress will be released after say 11:30 tomorrow. Just have to get through today. I do have a friend coming over to put up the new ceiling fan tonight. The house is still messy because I have been working on the washer. I feel bad because he has never been there before and he will get to see my mess.

Just more motivation to get my act together. Let go of the stuff weighing me down. I can think like an optimist, I just keep running into walls!

kat

(((((Kat)))))) you can always call me. I know H4H and Puppy both have my email, so if you ever need someone to vent to drop me and email and I'll send you my digits.

Hes a jackass...the kids know it and so does he.

Thanks Corey. I keep trying to be really strong through this and my nerves are really getting to me, just like when I was going through the divorce last year. I do have friends but they are either there for the dirt and not being a support or they are busy with their own stuff. Besides I don't think any of them have gone through bankruptcy so just a whole other bridge dealing with that!

I am doing what I have to, not what I want to. I don't understand why these people are so willing to draw us through the mud with them. I hope I never do get that because that would mean that I have sunk to their level! I am ashamed of where I have fallen but there is nothing to be done about that but pick myself up and put one foot in front of the other.

Thanks for listening.

kat

Well I am home and I survived! lol Driving over to KC was fine. Had to drive around a couple times to figure out where to park. When I go in there are several people in the room and my stomach is in knots. I didn't see my L. After I was there for a few minutes a lady comes over to me and asks if my name is ...I said yes. She is an attorney that work with L and will go over this with me.

It threw me off a bit but I was so nervous, I don't think it mattered at all in the long run. I was one of the last for the scheduled time to be called. There wasn't much to it. Your L asks you a set up predetermined questions, about 10 of them, and then the Trustee asks a few things and tells the L if they need anything else.

I just have to get my receipts together from the tax refund that I spent and a couple of bank statements and then I am done. Sigh.

Called someone to see if they could look at my washer(my friend that helped with the fan said he didn't know enough about my washer to work on it). They wanted to come this morning which could have been great except that I had to leave, so he is coming tomorrow and is fine with the boys being here.

Oh, that sound you hear? sigh of relief.

kat

I saw a cardinal this morning!! I prayed for a sign regarding somethings in my life and I still believe the cardinal is my sign.

I saw them last year so much around the time of the divorce. This year I think it has only been the second or third that I have seen. You usually have to really look for them but this one flew right in front of my car on my way to work. Hard to miss.

kat