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You know T, no one has ever requested that kind of drink and I'm not sure how I would get it to you. I see this on many threads, but never had the pleasure. So, if you would stear me in the right direction...I would be happy to buy you a drink.

ST - it was cool. The girls are really cute with each other.

I didn't really get to post too much today. But, I have to say I feel pretty solid....for now anyway.... H came over last night to drop off K. I was cooking and he hung out for a little while. He was actually pleasant for a change. I didn't cling, I didn't hug him good bye. K and he kissed and hugged for what seemed forever before he left. I miss the fact that we aren't all together. But, I do know he loves her, a lot. I just hope that's always going to be the case. I miss him, but I feel really detached lately. It doesn't scare me so much anymore. Not sure what that's all about. But, there are even times when I am really not attracted to him. And, then there are times that I am. It's weird. But, I have really been trying to realize and understand that I have no control over any of what he does. I am finally starting to really "get" that. And, when I find myself trying to control the sitch with him....I step back and remind myself that I can't control it....I can't control him...but, I CAN make things worse. That gives me the motivation to walk away.

Tomorrow Softball starts...pray for me.

yea for softball! you'll do great! and if anything, you'll have fun, and that's all that matters! humility of oneself is always important in sports. lol

I'm really glad your starting to "get it". It really does take time for some of those strong feelings to subside. Of course they aren't all gone, because duh, you love him, as well you should since you guys were M. I'm glad that he was able to be pleasant to you last night. You just keep it up, and whenever he's a jerk, remember that HE told you he knows how to push your buttons, and that's exactly what he's doing. Show him that you uninstalled them.

Glad you are feeling solid with your H. I am sure he sees it too. When you step back and compare your sich versus his sich its almost silly. His life is so chaotic and a mess. You are getting yours together and its great.

Enjoy softball! Let me know how it goes.

Still doing fairly well. I'm really trying to focus on K and I and leave H out of my head...as much as possible. I think I've been able to do a fairly decent job as of late. But, with his son coming in the next couple weeks.....who knows how that is going to affect me. I kind of pushed it out of my head. As a matter of fact...I totally forgot at one point. I think I'm blocking it out. That kind of scares me...but, if I need to deal with it...why deal with it until absolutely necessary. If I try to deal with it now....it won't make it hurt any less when it happens.

So, I noticed that H has been talking about his Ex..the one who divulged so much about their R and how messed up he was towards her....the ex he used to talk horribly about...the ex he contacted a month after we were M asking to be friends and meet for dinner...the same ex comes up in conversation the other day....so, I think...he's looking again...for someone...something new. Nice, real, nice...and guess what? It's not me! But, then again.....I'm the evil one who makes him sooo unhappy. So, now I just back off and keep my distance...

Separated at birth!!!

You got that right.

Softball was a blast. I had so much fun. I did pretty well, considering. I did get hit in the head and arm by a ball...so bruises will be there tomorrow....but, I will wear them as badges of honor. We lost, however...

I went to pick up K. My H was in a crabby mood......how unusual (not)...I was overly hyper because of the adrenaline. I told him that he would have been proud of me...instead...he said I looked funny in my sweats and that it wasn't a bump on my head..it was my devil horns coming through. ......yea, I get to be the villain....how unusual (not). I just said,,,"H, we agreed we were going to get along." H huffed and got in his truck and burned out. WTF? Seriously, that boy has issues. I have no idea what I have done this time. Maybe he hates that I have a life, now and he doesn't AND he isn't part of it....too F'ing bad...that was his choice.

So, tomorrow is another day. I am still too hyper to sleep..that sucks. Oooh, wait, I just yawned....a book should put me right out.

Goodnight

hi b

just wanted to let you know that I was thinkin' about cha. glad that softball was fun. how are the bruises?

keep havin' fun.

peace, blessings and prayers for U


T

Glad softball was so fun! We used to do that years ago and had such a great time.

Your H makes those comments because you are moving on, having fun and its threatning to him. He wants you sitting home and crying still.

Keep doing what you are doing!

exactly what SO2 said.


and on his ex-w comments, your not giving him what he wants, your not bowing to all his needs (and good job on that), so it's very likely he will turn to her if he thinks he can get something from her.

FG... I need you.

H put pictures of OW and her kids on his FB page. I kinda suspect that she found out he had a FB page and gave him hell. But, who knows. I saw pics of OW. I hate her. She's average. But, there's a pic of "them" ...he looks like "whatever" ...she's all happy. She's NOT ugly, but she looks desperate...maybe that's just my take. It hurt nonetheless.