My problem is also that I have been married twice and, worry that I may be marrying for third time in future.
Also, sometimes I think about getting male friend but, feel like I am cheating on my husband. I don't know if that is because I am still married. Don't know if that will change afterwards or if I will be feeling like this for a long time.
I really want to get to the point where I can help others on here. But,for now I just get so worn out.
Went to court last Monday. The judge asked us if we had come to any agreement. I told him that I have tried to talk to my husband but,that he has no change of mind.
The judge asked him if he wants the divorce he just shrugged his shoulders and said whatever she wants.
I had planned to stop at the courthouse coffee shop to ease my nerves after the meeting. Well, as I walked out of courtroom my husband was walking beside me. I didn't speak to him just went over to order my coffee. He walked up to the coffee counter also and ordered coffee. I walked over to a table and he followed and sat down., We drank some coffee I asked him if he had to go to work he said no had no work. I looked him in the eye and asked him if he wanted this divorce. He didn't give me an answer. I told him that he needs to speak up. He said that is the way that I am. I said I really don't want this divorce I am only doing it because you are so distant. He said we just didn't get along. I said the reason I acted that way was because of way you treated me. He said well you treated me badly. I said we will be sitting here all day going around in circles. He never said anything to show interest. Finally I said that I had to go and started walking away. He followed then we went separate ways to our cars.
This man baffles me. The judge told us to return next Monday for the divorce trial then he will sign the papers. If my husband doesn't try to talk to me before then then that will be it.
I am now going through sadness all over again. It is another hill that I will have to climb.
Here is the link to your previous thread. I made it into a tinyurl for you.
Do you know how to add a signature to your profile? If so, just copy this into your signature (remove the * first).
[*url=http://tinyurl.com/dgcbmk]My first thread[/url]
As far as your sitch goes, I can only offer my heartfelt sympathies. Three years is a long time to be left in limbo. Please keep journaling here. I pray that something good happens in your life in the next two months.
Peace.
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