Who knows, maybe one day, my very far away H may ask me out on a date... hahaha !
I had to laugh at this!
Have a nice day tomorrow. xxx
Yep, makes me laugh too...as I think it is very wishful thinking on my part !
Love to you True !
PS...very weird, but 2 days ago I woke up with swollen feet, ankles and hands...(not too bad, but enough for me to feel it) and all my feet, toe, knee, hand and elbow joints were sore, very sore. Now 3 days later it is still going on...not as bad, but all my joints are painful and seem swollen...
My d10 is home with the flu, but my symptoms even though they sound like the flu too, don't feel like it at all ! I slept 10 hours last night as I was exhausted ! Doctor told me to just take some painkillers... ANy ideas anyone ?
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Cindy, I wouldn't take any of those painkillers unless I was dying!
LOL !!! I'm not very scared of painkillers, they are simpel over the counter ones...nothing particularly high dossage ! Don't worry ! Feeling much better though today...think I will be fine in a few days !
Thanks for making smile braveheart !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Glad you feel better again. I would have changed the doctor if it had persisted. I find it a funny attitude to tell you to take pain killers for swollen limbs.
Cinders, I had what you described about 4 weeks ago. It's a type of flu that is going around. I took extra strength tyenol. Drink plenty of liquids...Gatorade is good. Tons of rest and only do what you feel you have to do. It's going to take you a couple of weeks to get over it completely.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Thanks Snodderly, it's a relief to hear ! I have been very very tired yes, going to bed on time and hoping it will pass as soon as possible.
MMF, hi sweety, I posted on your thread. (((((((((hugs))))))))
Last night after having 'talked' to a friend on the internet, I wondered whether I truly still want H back or am ready to date.. I prayed, cried a bit, and begged God to please help me see what I want, and if there is any possibility AT ALL that H may one day come back....(because of course it does NOT look like it may EVER be an actual possibility) so I fell asleep praying...
Then at 1.30am my phone rang....I turned the light on (as I was sleeping) and saw it was H. I answered ...but no one was there... I hung up again, figured he had called by mistake or whatever...but as I lay back in bed again, I worried, and sent him a TM saying 'you just called me, is everything ok ??' He wrote back, 'sorry, it was by accident'....
Anyway, I woke up wondering if that had been God's sign...
Does that actually happen...I have prayed and begged for signs so often in the past, but have never really experienced anything like this....
Oh well, whatever will be will be. Que sera, sera.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Cinders, no one can say what God has in mind for you. Could it have been something for you to hold onto or a promise? God answers prayers (I'm sure you have heard this before) as "yes", "no" or "wait".
I can't say how you feel inside your heart but I know mine is conflicted. People around me don't see that. They think that I am very consistent and handling my "situation" very well. I do know that when I think about some of the things that have happened lately, I know that I need to remain patient. For what? I'm not sure. It may be that the story isn't over for me and my W even though there is little evidence (if any) that there is a reason to hope.
I do know, that I am personally not ready. Am I lonely for female companionship? Yes! But what I am ready for and what I need are two different things. You are probably in a different place right now than me. This is why the best answer about what to do is not going to be from another person but your own personal relationship with God.
And I didn't say anything about your new thread but you really are way too hard on yourself. Everyone makes mistakes. What is unfortunate is when people continue to make the same mistake over and over again. You are a wonderful person that has a lot left to her own story. Your H may be a part of it. Allow your story to be written by the greatest author. I know He loves you and care for you more than any other one can.
Hugs!!!!
Me:56, W:51 D:26,S:24,S:22 Married:18 Bomb 9/27/06 Separated 11/27/06 Divorced 10/6/08 Leaving it up to God