Chose that title as it's how I have jokingly described myself to others recently. It's done in jest and I truely believe that if your happy in yourself, nothing else matters and things will look after themselves so not to worry. A lot learned through DBing, but I may of gone further than most, but hey.....lets all be happy positive people !!!
Good morning all
I've had a FAB weekend…..Friday nite was with MOT35, take away, few drinks and some TV cuddling up on the sofa (my birthday treat for her as she is now officially MOT35….Doh,,, never get a womans age wrong especially to add a year !!!).
Got up early Sat morning to go do some shopping as few bits I needed and hadn't got pressie for MOT35 yet. So did that, few new bits for me then went home, got showered and changed and went and picked up my boys at lunch time. Went and got food shopping for the day, back for some lunch, bit of TV and playing then we all went to the park. S6 walked off without telling me and I lost him for about 10 mins…..OMG, I was petrified, could feel the blood leaving my face and me getting whiter by the second then I saw him. Wanted to kill him and cuddle him at the same time but cuddling won with a little lecture of how he musn't do that….. Back home for tea and some more playing and some TV before bed. S6 has such a sense of humour and was cracking up at some things I love to watch which was nice and I was going to let him stay up later but he announced at 8.15…'Bit tired, think it's time for bed dad !!!'…Bless. So coupld of hours to myself watching rubbish.
Sunday got up with boys, breakfast and playing then S6 goes to a dance/acting/singing group so dropped him there and took dog for a walk with S2 (he loves the dog). Took dog home then we went to a park, went on the bits and pieces then played footy for a bit before picking up S6. I then had to take them home and within 15 mins just wanted them back again……Missed them so much, especially having them overnight 4 times this week and with me being away this weekend too. Guess that's the only problem with great weekends and great times….they come to and end….Anyway, to ease that pain, going to book up a summer holiday with my sister this week, they are already going with friends and all the kids so will be great ……Can't wait.
I'm on a life high right now, things going really good and off to hunt down some flats to rent this week.
Lol GM, It the crack and the Heoin, I'm sure your local street dealer will be able to sort you out !!!!!
What is there to be worried about really when you think about it all properly. We've this big wonderful world were blessed with, we've got families and friends were blessed with !!! There are more good things and good people in this world and were here to enjoy our short time on it so I firmly intend to do that.
Trust me, I've no idea where I got all philisophical or anything, I was just always a really happy positive person til about 5 years ago and once I realised what I had become, done the self analysis and started looking at the positives, it started to all come through.
Booked my summer hols with the boys last night. yippeeeee....S6 almost wet himself when he knew, then again when he found I'd got him HSM3, then again when I rang and confirmed hols was booked !!! Really annoyed with STBX tho, picked boys up from the park and I mentioned the holiday Saturday which I was going to book once I'd moved money around, but she went and told S6 before I did !!! WTF, that was my surprise....To say I wasn't happy was an understatement. What if the rooms had all gone FFS !!! I said something when picking them up from the park and for the first time ever, I actually got an apology, couldn't believe and it was the one time I really didn't care for it as it spoilt my surprise.
Ah well, all sorted now, not dwelled on it !!!
All is still well in my poor, homeless world !! lol
Got a (what I think is) a divorce petition in the post yesterday with some court thing on it. Really don't understand it and need to ring my sols today as says I need to respond in 7 days. However, I asked STBX about it when dropping of the boys and she was like 'I've no idea, my sols does not return my calls and I'm changing sols !'. So I have no idea what all this means.
Will ring sols and ask their advice.
STBX is friendlier to me now, even showed me where I'm taking the boys on holiday in a brochure (I hadn't looked as my sister and friends were already going so I just tagged along knowing it would be fine) and it looks pretty cool.
Also, was chatting to a guy I know from work and footy last night and he has a spare room in the flat he rents. I'm going to see it and have a chat with him next week and will go for it if he is ok about boys etc, but as a policeman that does shifts, I think I may be able to have them over around his work....
Just had a fantastic weekeend away with a group of mates for poker/drinking fun. My body is in pieces and I am absolutely shattered, but it was all worth it. My team came 3rd and I also won a little the Thursday night before going so it was also a free weekend….weeeeeeeeeeeee
No developments really. Got solicitors this Thursday afternoon re the Court thing I got, dropped a copy to him on the Thursday and we will go through that an also the e-mails I sent him back in January to which he has not yet replied. Had my boys yesterday and was fab, I so missed them and S6 was asking to stay last night which I would of loved but cannot do with having to get up and to work etc, but they are staying Sat night again and I cannot wait. Nothing (for me) beat that waking first thing and all cuddling up for a bit with my 2 boys. I will take them swimming Saturday pm as they love it and me and S6 will watch HSM3 together once S2 in bed. Then take S6 to his acting/dancing class Sunday morning and take S2 to play footy in the park…….Through in I'm having works leaving drinks Friday night (I'm moving offices and teams), I am super happy to have my weekend already planned and it couldn't be better in my eyes.
Also might (it's a complicated possibility but I'm praying it comes off) be able to rent a really cheap 2 bed place. A friend of my mums is currently in it but has a really poorly daughter and neither parent is currently working so getting somewhere on the government. Fingers crossed for me as it sounds awesome
The 2 bed place sounds great and what a wonderful improvement it would be for your sitch, especially regarding your boys staying over. Crossing my fingers and praying it comes through for you.
Still super happy and ok, but got a bit of a bad day yesterday. Bored at work as not much to do and sitting waiting to find out if being made redundant and when from is starting to really do my head in !!!
Anyway, went to get my boys, S2 shattered as been dropping his lunchtime sleep and doesn't want to come with me. S6 thinks this is great so we can spend time together and yes, it is for that reason, but I don't see them enough as it is, but as he really didn't want to come and would need to be home in 2 hours for bed, I just gave him some big hugs and left it. Say I'll bring S6 home after a program he watches and about 7.45 to wish she replies, well, I'm going out at 7.30, the baby sitter will have to put S6 to bed and I'm like, no, it's ok, I'll do it obviously. So S6 and I went to a friends but she off to gym, so her D7 came with us to play for an hour. Took her home, me and S6 had dinner and my mums tells me, that STBX has apparently been bragging in the playground about her date with a bloke. So I just text, please use some sense and don't go bragging about dates etc when the boys are about and got no reply. We then did S6 homework (really enjoyed doing that with him), then going to watch a program but it wasn't on so he dcides he is tired and wants to go to bed. So I'm about to take him home and he says, mum went on a date with blah, so I sort of responded but changed subject quickly but couldn't believe she was letting him know what she was up to, especially as from what I can work out, it must be pretty fresh. I was fuming, but got myself together and took him home knowing she would stiull be in. He went to the loo, so I semi confronted her about it and she was like, well, I didn't tell him. I said, I didn't here from him tho but someone about 30 yards away in the school playground, you've got the biggest mouth going so obviously the kids are gonna hear and it's not on. She says, so you've got spies on me at school now, I said, WTF ??? Someone was miles away from you and heard it. I don't care, but it's not right that the boys hear about that. She responds with, hope your not going to spoil my date now ?. What ? How ?, by running out and telling him not to see me or whatever !!. I'm like, no love, I'm sure if he's half a brain he'll figure you out by himself soon enough. I got back, that's funny, so how come you were begging me to stay then last year ?. Because I was in shock I can only guess as 2 months later I couldn't believe my luck. Then S6 appeared and I got him in bed, did his story etc and were having a cuddle when he gets all teary eyed and says to me…Daddy, why can't you come and live here again ? It's not the same without you !!. So I repeated what we've always said, that mummy and daddy don't love each other anymore, but we still love you boys with all our hearts and that will never change. We just have to live at separate house now. He was still crying so I asked if he wanted mummy and he said yes, so I called her up and left them together. TBH, I needed to get out as I was welling up and not good for my son to see that. He broke my heart bless him. So glad I've got them this Sat night.
Anyway, I gave up smoking the day before and hadn't had one but after that episode just needed one so stops at the shops round the corner and bought a 10 pack and was sitting on a wall smoking it when she comes round the corner with OM, she is giving direction but hiding her face and I was laughing….Why go that way which goes past my mums house anyway ???? Silly mare. I was actually on the phone to MOT35 at the time and was having a chuckle about it with her….lol
I'm ok, it just really got me as it's brought the boys into it just cuase she has the biggest mouth. I couldn't care what she does anymore but it will affect them and that is bang out of line. She should think about that and if anything, I hope she realises that now. Also, why go bragging to the school mums anyway ? I mean, they can only think worse of her if anything….Fine tell ya close friends but random mums from school ?
BTW - All the above conversation was done calmly and without any emotion. MOT35 asked (again) how I felt about it all and inc the STBX going on a date as I'm sure she is convinced that if she snaps her fingers I'll go running back. I wont, not in a million now, I just like to be honest and up front with her.
hey Arthuer, they just have a different set of values. they are inder the i,pression that they did nothing wrong by putting an end to the marriage and also think that the kids will handle it. that is my experience....again it is just plain selfishness. You think that she will lokk bad in front of the other moms...she probably feels like she is bragging and the other moms envy her freedom. they are in another world or they would not have acted the way they did and continue to.
