I too have my days/nights that I scream up to the Heavens !! But what is true is that this forum and especially my friends here, have helped me cope and understand, and whenever I feel down or confused, there has ALWAYS been some one around to help !!
Thanks for that guys !
PS. Sorry for the hijack YR !!! But you know your fairydust has done wonders too !!!
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
You are lucky tha naej gave you the "what for" before I did.
You seemed to have forgotten that this is all about them and not us. Yes some come home and others don't and I don't have a crystal ball to say who will return. I wasn't sure that my H would ever come home. My gut told me that he would and that was it. No one ever knows.
You are wonderful caring person and you deserve the very best. Who knows what the future holds for you, sweetie but I would bet it will be fantastic!!!! *+*+*+*+*+*+*+ You've been dusted!!!
I have never had problem with anyone posting on my thread. Post away!!
You're right, no one ever knows, and my gut tells me...'we belong together, there is a tie between us that will never disappear', does this mean he'll be back...Nope.
I do feel happy now, and it's only sometimes that I let my thoughts wonder away with me...
Like I've said before, it's my friends here who have always kept me grounded and safe ! Thanks for the fairy dust !!!
Loads of love to you dear YR ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Your gut feeling doesn't have to be wrong either. I too thought me and my H were meant to be together. It just takes a while for them to figure themselves out!
Hey Mom....I just posted my evening...please read it when you get a chance....
I hope you are well....and can I have a dusting of fairy dust please....
MAH....luv ya.....Treese
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
Tonight I overheard s11 talking to H...he had his phone on speaker...I haven't heard his voice in a few weeks...I started to tear up...
Then I was talking to D16, asked her if she has heard from her dad...she kind of chuckled and said no...not in a long time...gosh this hurts so bad...H had told me that the girls need to call HIM! WTF? He's acting like a 12 yr old.."if you don't call me I'm not gonna call you" kind of thing...totally ticks me off. This is the whole thing that bothers me...he and my girls were so close to him...I know I can't make him call them or them to call him but wow....never ever thought it would be like this....my girls say they have no father...MLC sucks...I guess his new girls are enough for him...did your H ever say he thought about your kids alot and missed them...H hasn't seen D22 since Christmas and that was only brief...I guess I just had to vent this...the anger builds and I have to let it out...last night I screamed in my pillow...what in world has happened...
all my friends keep telling me he is going to regret everything some day...I don't believe so....
I think it's finally done...he has totally written me off and my girls...
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
Gosh I feel your pain Treese! I am so sorry and even more so understand. My H is doing the same things with our girls. I know that I have to stay out of it and I do but it is so very wrong. He is hurting them so much, he is missing out on so much, this is so unfair for them, all that stuff...I don't understand it either. How he can do this and not think twice. Hang in there girl. I am praying for you TOH
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
I know I sound like a broken record but this is all a part of MLC. They withdraw from their former lives. They only think of themselves. Remember my D is disabled and was the apple of my H's eye. They also were so close. Well my H left her on the wayside too!!!! This disturbed me to no end. She was throwing big time fits and he didn't give 2 cents about it. He also was very close to our GD and S. He told me one day that he didn't care if he ever saw any of them again. I thought to myself you heartless azz!!!
They disconnect from all family, friends, etc. Until they make their way back from the "darkness" it will be this way.
