{{{V}}} thanks for asking..I've had a weird day..started off good and then I went out to the mailbox and my dear sweet girlfriend who I went to her house the night my hub "bombed" me sent me a Valentine card (oh my gosh..so amazingly sweet I can't even tell you) and I just started to cry..it just touched me so much that she would think to do that because she knew how sucky it was for me..
So..I went to work and had another instance where my stepdad was just so sweet..didn't want me to walk outside to my car by myself in the dark..walked me outside, waited as I got into my car, waited until I was driving OFF before going back inside, and he is the DOCTOR with patients waiting for him..but my safety was so much more important..and again it just touched me how sweet he was..
And then this evening I was talking to Amy and was talking about how more than anything, even thru all of the crap, I'd just want my marriage back, the man downstairs "snoring on the couch" LOL well in a different set up of course..not the way it WAS but the same man, if you know what I mean (and I know you all do)..and then I started to just cry again (tho Amy didn't know that part until now LOLOL)..the first 2 cries were good cries, the second one..not so much..and none of them long weepy pity party crying LOL..
So..my {{V}} valentine..not as good as I'd like to be..but then again, I'm GOOD..I'm FINE actually..happy most of the time and just been enjoying my goofy times with my friends at work and friends from here..but the sad reality truth is that I still miss my hub at times..still hate hate HATE the fact that we somehow got to this place that he is moving out in 3 days..
BUT..no matter how it turns out..I am gonna be okay..better than okay actually..I'm already better than okay..
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
{{{Pearl}}} Oh it definitely did..I reminded myself of Amy because she would say "I had some sad but it didn't last long" and it really didn't..probably made it sound like it did LOLOL..but no..it was shorter lived than I even thought it would be
AWW my own fan club <blush>..you are ALL being way too sweet..LOLOL!!
Yeah..check out some locations while you are there for us to have a fun DB gals weekend My friend just got back from there and was telling me about the Venetian and the Mirage and about this cool spot that is in "old Vegas" where they have a canopy with a light show like every half and hour and I saw the pics and it looked so very cool
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
I know how you feel about wanting everything back. I feel like that at times. There is nothing wrong with still loving those that left us like they did. In fact it makes us the better ones. JD is the same.
I would have my W back as she used to be if I could. What I don't want to do however, is to be selfish about it. If she felt bad enough to leave, then she must have been SO unhappy. I just want her to be happy now, with or without me.
I was looking through old documents on my PC last night and I came across something I wrote in November 2007, some 10 months before D-Day. It was quite upsetting to read, We were both VERY unhappy, stuck and could not see a way forward. I had totally forgotten about feeling like that, and so long ago too. Just proved to me that I was blocking the bad out and simply mourning the loss of the good.
One day, I will be able to sit down and say to myself that, hey, despite all the unhappy times, we had some GREAT ones and brought 2 wonderful boys into the world. Right now though, I am not in a position to do that. It's locked away in a box.
However...I know the next few days are going to be hard for you. We are here for you though. The T Fan Club is out in force!
Oh, Pearl, you've probably gone by now...but HAVE A GREAT TIME!!
Party is still on in my thread T, you can be guest of honour!
Just checking in on you and wanted to let you know that I will be sending you good, freezing cold, Minnesota vibes this weekend. I know you are dreaming about being in Florida, but the snow can be a great escape as well.
You are one strong chick, and cry all you want sister. It's a sad day, but tomorrow you will just get up and go again.
{{{{Tawnya}}}} - the way people treat you is who you really are.
I thought about that the other day - the people on here are supportive, my family is in awe of me (undeservedly so), my church friends have faith in me and love me. My friends think I'm a great dad, and an awesome person.
Frankly, W is outnumbered - and your H is just being an idiot - both of them are completely alone in what they think.
I've never even "met" you, and I think so highly of you!
{{{Silva}}} yeah..I totally hear you..I wouldn't want my hub back the way he is NOW..but it's tough when you know how they WERE..you wonder tho..as nice as we all seem to be..were we the cause of their unhappiness you know? Sigh..yeah..hopefully you can open your box little by little and get out all the bad and replace it with the good..I am not a compartmentalizing person (just an overanalyzing one LOL) and so my box is open and I guess it's really open this week..cause dang if I haven't been silly "cry girl for no reason" again today..so obviously this coming up weekend is weighing on me even more than I know :P
{{{Nw}}} aww thank you my friend..I'm glad you see it..so remind me if I forget okay?? And hey..I like poker too LOL!
{{{Son}}}} Brr..I'm not about too much cold weather for sure..but sometimes it is beautiful..the snow and the mountains!
{{{JD}}} Aww my friend..thank you..I feel like that too..as far as being overwhelmed with how sweet people are to me..but I LOVE your thought process on that "my hub is outnumbered" LOL..actually my MOM said that similar thing to me last night when I was telling her about my sweet day, she's like "well that's because everyone loves you" and I was like, "yeah except for my hub it seems" and she's like "well who KNOWS what's going on with him" LOLOL!! I have had 2 of my good girlfriends tell me they wanted to go beat him up LOL (which is funny)! JD..aww thank you my friend..what would I do without you guys?
Well I have had a nice day today..went out for coffee with a friend I hadn't seen in months (one of the ones who wants to beat up my hub LOL) and we got to talk for 2 hours and then went with my daughter, who just went from blond to red/brown for the first time EVER today LOLOL..then she and I went to eat (got to have some pecan pie YUMMO) and took her to see her best friend (who she surprised with her hair) and then to my work for them to see and now I"m going out to dinner with a gal from work
BECAUSE..I called hub today and was like "so, if you are working all day tomorrow and moving Sunday, when is it you are packing up stuff in our room" and he's like "I guess I"ll do it tonight" and I"m like "okay..then I won't be there" and he's like "okay, that's fine" and (I am in a sarcastic sassy girl mood today LOL) and said "well thank you for your permission" hehe
So anyway..that is my day..tried to get a friend to work for me tomorrow and in all honesty, AMY, I probably would have been ridiculous enough to hop in my car and drive for 10 hrs if she had said yes LOL..so tomorrow I will work all day and then head home for a bit I GUESS and Sunday I definitely want to find something to do cause the "moving crew" will be there around 9 a.m. on Sunday :P
Tawnya
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