Maybe I should get that. Ex brought S16 to do his fill in job for a friend of mine at the bank. He stood around like he was just waiting to launch into a conversation.
Just not good of him to do. I only had about 15 minutes left at work but still. I told him that not everyone functions or thinks the way he does. It isn't it just happened, it's over forget it. People have their own way of working through things. I said S13 has gone through alot. Ex, you didn't see him crying and not talking, so angry he was really trying to hurt his brother, or all curled up crying and shaking. Do you know what he is thinking? Tell me because I don't and I think we are pretty close. (S13 went through a bunch of medical stuff as a kid and it has really made him tough, he doesn't let much "pain" out).
I am past "us" but am angry that his choices still effect us. He was in such a hurry to get out of my life, then get out already. But he keeps making stupid choices. He says we should be able to talk about this. I told him yes, but he made a choice to not talk about any of it and now, NOW, he thinks I should be able to just talk to him about this. I told him to give me some solutions, we already know there is a problem.
He told me, maybe he needs to get up and ride the bus. Ok what that has to do with grades? I said everything was interconnected but don't see how he gets to school is the issue. It is huge for me if he misses the bus(he sits for 45 minutes waiting for school to start because the bus has to go pick up grade school kids)because I have to scramble to get him to school, the girls ready and still get them to their bus and then I have maybe 15 minutes to get ready.
I was not sweet and innocent in this conversation he insisted on having, but he had the balls to threaten me about increasing the time he has with the kids because he has such a bad relationship with them. Somehow, this is my fault.
Someone just give me a beer and get it over with!
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
S16 and I went to see "Defiance". It is really good. Came home hoped on the internet to read more about it. Of course there are two sides to every story and read a bit about the villagers situations. Either way it was incredible.
I went on to a site that is on TV quite a bit. They really do find people that talk about what is important to you. I feel as if I am in a grocery store...Oh, let me grab some romance, some that love family, someone that is tall. I would laugh but it is a little scary. Maybe I am not quite as ready as I thought.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Oh, let me grab some romance, some that love family, someone that is tall. kat
don't do that if you don't feel ready, and if you do at some point, I would just try to be trying to make friends, not long-term Rs. But Kat, that description sounds perfect for me!!! Send him my way!!! Karen
Well I think the point of this site is to help you find lasting relationships! Kind of hard to go there and say when they are looking for someone to be serious with, oh let's just be friends. I do want more but just feels like I need to be even more careful.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I don't mean you don't want to have a long-lasting R, I would like one at some point, just kind of focusing on the friendship part more than looking for romance or whatever. Kind of I'm thinking taking baby steps or dipping my toe in, not as scary as just focusing on trying to find an H or long-term R. It would take me a while I think to be ready for that anyway. Maybe that wouldn't be a great place for me if my attitude would throw people off or whatever. It's not that I don't want a long-term R, just not ready for one and want to work up to that. I do think I'm a long-term type person at heart though. I know you are too!!! Karen
Plus, I know this sounds superficial, but I don't know what these people look like! I just don't think it is something I should be spending money on at the moment.(You know what I mean). Maybe after I get this whole thing started, I will feel like I am in a better place to do that.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
It appears that someone tried to break in through our sliding glass door off of the deck recently. I thought I heard something Sunday night after I went up to bed but it was just for a second so thought it was my imagination.
Part of the frame is bent and there are some marks on the door. Such a creepy feeling. We had someone break in the day after Christmas about 5 years ago. S13 was in the basement playing video games and the rest of the kids and our exchange student(18) were asleep. S13 came up to tell me that he saw someone trying to break in and practically ran into the burglar. I shudder to think what might have happened. Instead the guy ran off.
I hate this feeling especially on top of everything else.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
What a yucky feeling. We had someone doing that in our neighborhood recently as well. We got one of those wooden dowels and stuck it in the track opposite the sliding door. Made me feel safer. I was also more conscious of locking those doors at night.
Luckily it has a toe lock too, so there are two locks on the door. Just ticks me off. Scares me too. My kids were like on "patrol" last night checking everything. They were the ones that pointed the door out to me. I hate that it scares them too!
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Do you have a dog? The good thing about mine is I know he barks like crazy if anyone gets within 10 or 20 feet of our house (well not always good) but at least if he's not barking I feel safe. And his bark is scary too, so maybe burglars would go somewhere where there isn't a loud dog maybe? I like to think so anyway.
