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so our trees are in the same way lol!! i have lights and popcorn and cranberry strands on it since thanksgiving day, kids schedules to busy, and havent felt like it to be honest.

good luck this afternoon, know I am thinking of you, and when your heart beats, thats me holding your hand and giving you a hug. do you think maybe your H is being so weird all weekend because you go in today?? My h gets wierd with any kind of bigger tests you know.

well the blame game cant go on forever, i mean it, we dont deserve it. and honestly my heart cant take it in all literal meaning of the word you know?

love you to my T with the Y

Thanks BG. No, for the first time ever I didn't mention the appointment to him. Just kept it to myself. He did freak for my last follow up mammo, so this time I said nothing.

I really think that the behaviour is a reaction to a wave of his own guilt. One minute he is incredibly sad with tears in his eyes because he has caused his Wife so much hurt, and the next he is angry at me. ?????

I don't know why these guys can't just get mad at themselves.

It also probably doesn't help that I am reading the last Twilight book and I just wish my H was a loving as Edward is. lol

oh dont we all dream of an edward? or the guy in the movie the notebook.

oh guess what? a little birdie just called me and told me where a certain home wrecking whore lives!!!

I read the notebook. Have not seen the movie. It's on my "to do" list. I'd still pick Edward. Have to admit that the money helps

While I was baking cookies last night the football game had ended (Lions vs Colts) and Judge Judy came on. Don't like that show but didn't change it cause I was too busy. She had a funny case where a "wronged woman" spray painted insults on the house and car of her former boyfriend and his new GF. It cost the old GF lots of $$$. So be careful.

Wait until we all get together and fire up the big equipment...we can run all of the OW thru the chipper! lmao!!!

LOL of course the money helps pick edward, its the same kind of love tho in the notebook. saw the notebook before i read the books!

oh I would NEVER do anything, except, if he poofs and disappears, do a drive by, to see if he is a liar! I would most def wait for my back up to get here if I was gonna be naughty lol!

i am dying to ask him what he did for her bday today, since it was yesterday.............

My doctor's appointment went well. The radiologist has officially cut me loose. Woo hoo!

Will continue to see the oncologist however for the next 4 years, and have mammmograms every 6 months. That's ok. It is reassuring to still be connected.

It was nice to get home early. It is very cold and blowing snow. H was still here when I came in. We talked for a bit and he made a pot of venison chili. His mood seemed to be good and we talked about normal things. He left to go hunting and said he would be home shortly after dark. I was positive and calm, and did not mention anything about his actions in the morning. He seems to have forgotten them

He did tell me that one of his brothers had called to talk to him today. He said that the brother had asked him how we were doing and H told him we were doing pretty good. Hmmmm. Guess we just need to string together some calm and cool days. See where they take us. I should be pretty used to biting my tongue by now. Guess I need to work on the calm and cool part.

Great news for you hope at the doctor! That is a wonderful gift. Sounds like you had a nice conversation too. I am very happy for you Hope! Take care and stay warm! The drive home was good, now tomorrow they are calling for 2 -4 inches of snow tonight into tomorrow, that will make it fun in the morning!

Wow, this just so clicked for me! I'm reading this thinking: EXACTLY. At least as part of a reaction anyway...

Sorry to hear it's been a roller coaster. This time of year is tough indeed. I'm feeling it too. The hardest part for me is having such mixed feelings towards w. but I'm trying to do the detaching thing (fumbling around in it).

Purr

Morning Hope, how is the coffee? Hope you had a nice evening, and got some rest!

that is so great the radiologist let you loose! woo hoo for you!!

i have at least 4 inches of snow. yuck. oh well eh? more coming or freezing rain in a couple days.

morning to you