Bg--Just checking in, hope you were able to get out of the house. So cold today. I thought of you and wondered if the fire was a blazin' in the woodstove.
LE
M42 S12/D9 T17/M12 Bomb 1 3/22/06 Bomb 2 7/11/08 Bomb 3 7/31/08 W Filed 8/1/08 D granted 12/17/08 D Finalized 1/29/09
A man who compromises his principles never had them in the first place.
brrrrrrrrr its cold, down in the negative teens with the windchill overnite and this morning. the stove is having a hard time keeping up.
calm weird weekend. H never brought up the email as he told me we would talk about it. tried to work on xmas shopping for the kids this weekend, found a really cool thing I wanted to get them ALL, even the ow's other son, asked H how many to get he said 3, I said not 6? he said you have 3 kids. that hurt, he wouldnt do any shopping or looking for his son or his 14 yo d. not with me. yesterday was her bday, i dont think he talked to her, but who knows. i am sure he did saturday as he was at work, so they either did by phone or email. I told Kel yesterday, he best not by her CRAP as all the money we have at the moment is literally mine. this morning, he calls and says we have to figure out xmas, so I can go be with my son, not we, not us, not even his mom. she is not going to budge on that at all. it still makes me scared that with so much of the truth is what she has told me, that the part of him leaving and divorcing ME soon as xmas is over is true too. of course, the weekends are always better as he isnt near her, today all day, they are in the same building. guess we see how it goes today.
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
But, regardless of what he chooses to do, you will be fine. You are so strong...I know you don't feel that way all the time, but you are! I'm amazed by you!!!
So, remember that...that I think you are amazing and so do most of the other people who know you too!!!
Love you, BG! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
Hi Babygirl. Thank you so much for the words you have sent to me.
This has been an amazing night, so far, since I have started reading. I have just begun and already have read from two of my girls that just didn't think there was any way on earth that they could ever turn lose of their H's......and yet, I come in and read that post that says that they have! I don't know what is in the air, but it must be something that has given them the grit and grace to do what they know they must.
It is so sad to think of all the families that will be breaking up at Christmastime or shortly afterwards. I had heard that that happens a lot. My heart goes out to you and I wish I could say something wonderful to help your pain. I just feel.....I don't know babygirl.....just sad. I know you have a lot to deal with and I admire you more now than ever since I understand more than I use to know. Some day, some way, you will be blessed....I am sure of it. Sweet people like you have to have those blessings in life b/c you give so much of yourself not to get a little in return.
I don't know many on this board that has as many friend as Babygirl does. I see your name everywhere and that is b/c you go to them and say a few word (unlike me)but they are precious. Hold on tight, sweetie, and don't let go of all that you know is good and true. You are love.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
Hey BG...checking in on you. I haven't had a ton of time to visit. You sound like you are doing pretty good. I like that. No point in worrying about what MIGHT happen after Christmas. Just enjoy your family and the time you are with them. Love you
M 5yrs 1st baby-girl born 6/18/08 Bomb: 10/13/07 OW - I was 6wks Prego H Moved in w/OW: 11/2/07 D Final 07/10 OW had his baby 3/17/09-so her Me, now - happier than I ever was with him
its still snowing here, we have like 6 inches, its icky out yucko! kel you want it come take it lol.
h and i talked some last nite, boy oh howdy he is a mess, screw his mess, he made it. i sad that actually lol. S called from his dads. needing some info for H's xmas suprise he is making, then he called h to ask him something, and it went from there. he had tears in his eyes saying how much S meant to him, and i said well you sure havent worried about that. he said no i havent, i reminded him, about my kids unconditional love, and how rare that is with our circumstances.
OH get this! my anymous person?? the name is the OW maiden name! and SHE still has him convinced I already knew it and am setting HER up, WTF she needs a mental hospital lol!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
