Oh well, I'm turning into one of those posters who always say good bye and never really leave ! It's become my daily routine to check on my friends on the boards and it's always a lovely surprise to find a new post or two on my thread, even after the "good bye" :).
(((Addie))), I will keep in touch, that's for sure!
MMH, your story is amazing and you're such an inspiration, never giving up! I'm so happy for you and your family and wish you a happiest Xmas ever. Thank you for posting to me, I take it as a good omen :).
Sgctxok, hi! it always feels so nice to have you visiting, even if only for a moment.
(((Kalni))), dear friend, you were yhe reason I came to post today and I'm so glad I did, found all these posts here. Thank you, I feel good about myself and I'll keep the distance.
(((Essie))), thank you, love, for the prayer. I'm doing my best to heal, I'm a little bit (ok, a lot) anxious/scared about the future, but it doesn't have much to do with H, it's more about the crisis. I'd be anxious with H by my side as well. To be out of limbo feels GREAT.
(((Hugs))) and love to all.
Last edited by stella_k; 12/11/0810:12 AM.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
If you do actually leave, you will be sorely missed. You are always such a great source of support for us.
I don't think your H is as done as he thinks he is, but you sending him away was the best thing you could do--for YOU. It is time for Stella to worry about Stella for a change. Be a little selfish. Enjoy the blessings of the season and focus on what is really important--yourself, your daughter.
Happy Holidays, sweetie!
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
Happy Holidays, (((hon))), and - thanks! I love your new name, BTW, A LOT! xx
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
Starting tomorrow, my comp will be gone (I hate comps and they hate me back!), so it's my last chance to post an update, at least for a while.
I saw H twice and I spoke with him 3 or 4 times since we told our D17 and I asked him not to call me, unless it's emergency. So far he was able to come up with 4 "emergencies", 2 of them required a visit. He could easily come over and pick up the stuff he needed when I wasn't home, he still has the key. Instead, he arranged it so that we could see each other (I don't think it could be just a coincidence). Last time when he came he started right away, still at the door step: how I wish I've never done all that... I would want nothing more than us still together . Well, I was in a good and light mood, so I replied quite naturally (it came to me naturally, I didn't have a moment to think)and jokingly: come back then! To which he replied by muttering something unintellible, things like: it's so complicated now, I wish I knew what to do, well, usual. I just ignored it and left it at that. He said he was in a hurry but when I offered some tea, he stayed, and I had to remind him that it's time to go. Last time he called, after giving me some news (bad news) about our financial sitch, he started telling me about the book he's reading and before I could utter a word, he was reading me from the book. Assuming: he cannot TALK to her and misses our conversations. I know this may be far fetched, but I can sense it. My show is closing today and I have a small finissage for friends. H is going to come over. He also called a couple of friends and invited them over. Whatever, I remain detached NO MATTER WHAT. He also told me that he wrote a long letter to D17, but then he completely "melted down" (his words) and erased the letter. Instead he sent her a short e-mail: this will end well, you'll see, or something similar. Of course, she didn't reply. I spoke with her several times, she sounds better now. She says she doesn't want to speak with H yet (she ADORED him all her life, he couldn't do wrong) and she'll NEVER meet or speak with OW. She also told me to pack my things, take my cat and come to stay with her (in her tiny room) . She also said the cutest thing ever: mom, you should come and we should go on dates together . I'm seriously considering it!
(((HUGS))) and
MERRY CHRISTMAS to all.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
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. Well, I was in a good and light mood, so I replied quite naturally (it came to me naturally, I didn't have a moment to think)and jokingly: come back then! 
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