All done. checked out her car, brake fluid is low. Couldn't find any noise and couldn't fail the brake pedal.
Went in and met with her. told her the fluid is low, she needs to stop and get some. I also couldn't see leas, so my experience is the booster is leaking, not good. she says she is due for her 30k check-up but its a pain to get the car there, told her she needs to do it.
Her hand is wrapped as I know she had a procedure done. I did not mention it and neither did she. She was bringing over two items for a customer and was struggling so I took one and helped her. She is still beautiful. We talke about her car and what she had to d and that was it. I said I had to go and she thanked me again for looking at it right away. And told me to have a good day as I walked away. Over the shoulder I said you too.
Wanted to to kiss her. Beat that feeling back and ended the conversation. I was very courteous and nice. shine, yeah , I think I did. She was wearing a bracelet, most likely from OM. she doesn't usually wear them unless she is going out, so I figure it is from him. Noticed it, commented here, and thats it. She will tranfer my money over to the joint account this afternoon and i will transfer it to my acct. I shouldn't have to communicate with her again until the week of the 15th to remind her about the insurance payment if the policy is not separated by them. then nothing til Xmas at my D and my FIL.
Thought about asking her that, really did, but really, do i want to hear she is doing great or good or whatever...? seriously?!
She looks good, I smiled and even laughed a little, kept it very cool. Looked her in the face most of the time. She was busy trying to get these things for this ustomer who was waiting.
I know I shined AmyC, I know I did. When I offered to carry one of the pieces she said she was OK, but then alright. It was hurting her to carry it, but not as much as letting me help her. We mentioned her car deal about 3x's, and I realized that nothing further was coming out of this. It bothered her to see me, that I know. Not as an inconvenience, but becasue I took care of the situation andtold her what to do without offering to do it or assist.
Almost asked her out for coffee, lol....Nah, nothing until he is gone....Being strong. I 'd like to meet you for coffee and just sit and talk. I don't get to do that much. I am hoping my cousin who is one town over calls me this weekend. She is actually my cousins step sister, but we all grew up together. we have grown apart, but she was always close to me, all the girls were (cousins).
Well, kinda excited. I am taking D17 into boston for the day. It's gonna be kinda cold, 30's, but I want to do something with her, get her out of the house. she seems really down, does go to her Mom's, but I don't know. She misses her, as do I , and I think it's finally starting to hit her pretty solid.
She's going to the movies with friends tonight andI am out playing cards at a friends.
Sunday my sone is coming over to watch the game and I ahve two projects I am going to work on during the day. Hopefully no snow.
Yes, I thought yesterdays performance was real good. No phone call from her girlfriend about it, so no biggie. Oh yeah, she calls her girlfriend to tell her about anything with me, and usually she calls to tell me one way or the other. I do prefer the not hearing about it. Yes I was very take charge, you need to do this and you need to do that. Helped her with carrying the box because it was the right thing to do. She didn't bring up any other topics for discussion, so I didn't venture. I let her control the conversation, not me. I think she was a little surprised I didn't ask about her hand or anything else. she did seemed poised at the end of our conversation and after she took care of her customer to talk. I could see it, wanted to do it, but I decided that it would be best to cut out. I didn't want to look like I was hanging or looking like i wanted to be around her. I figured the best action was to be the same way I was at thanksgiving, short, direct, polite and gone.
Weekend is looking good, my son-in-law just got a great job after being laid off 3 weeks ago, my D21 just got a loan from her grandfather to get her over the hump and take care of a loan she got through me, my son has a second interview for a job after being let go 2 weeks ago, and me and D17 are gonna have some fun tomorrow. She isn't feeling well so I am not sure how long she will hold out.
I have a dance I am looking forward to next Friday night, a christmas Party that Saturday (I was invited to stay overnight, but D17 would be alone for 2 nights, so I'll most likely go home after) and christmas shopping that Sunday. I am busy, feel good about yesterday, feel good about a lot of things. I was posting over at another forum, helping out and getting feedback. I do really feel better. Want her back, but i do know that if she doesn't lose OM, face her demons, do some soul searching, then there is absolutely no chance. I didn't really get a reading on her yesterday other than this look of "That's it?" I cannot even consider any connection with her until OM is gone. regardless of any effort she makes.
What's up for your weekend? (sorry to ramble. I take my opportunites to "talk" to you very seriously and jump on every opportunity)
It was a good day. she didn't really seem up ofr it as she says she hasn't been feeling good and has been tired. I hope so. she seems kinda down and can't says I blame her. We walked around downtown crossing and Fanueil Hall, took her out for lunch at a nice chinese restarant. She told me she had a good time and i overheard her talking to her friend on the phone saying she had a real good time and all.
I went into this Irish cart in the marketplace. there was a Cletic Cross that caught my eye from outside so I went in to look at it. It is a necklace type thimg. I looked at a couple and went back to it. There was something scribed inthe back that I couldn't read. Put my glasses on and it ssays "STRENGTH". I got goose bumps typing this. I am Irish and very proud off my heritage. I ahve been asking for signs, OH, MY, GOD! A Celtic Cross with that word inscribed on it in the back. Needless to say I bought it. will have it blessed at church tomorrow because, I have too!!. AmyC, how's that for a sign!!!!! After this week and last, I'm soory, but you gotta get goosebumps on that. Walk into boston, find an Irish items cart, see a necklace that catchs your eye, you look at others you go back to it, said to my daughter, this one is nice, i should buy it. she said what does it say on it. Put ont he glasses and would've liked to sh@# my pants. He works in mysterious ways. the one time i didn';t ask for a sign, i get this?! Fabulous. I will take it as a sign. The one thing that I knew I needed now more than ever was strength to continue on like I have been this past week and a half. It is really and truly amazing.
Going to a Toys for Tots Jamboree in Lynn tomorrow. My buddy the country western singer called me and says he's going to support a couple of bands he knows. He will sit in and sing a couple of tunes. I am hooking up with him for that deal. Weekend is going great, miss her, but you all know that. Having some downtime now, because I need to realy. Can't get over the cross. anyone else out there have anything like this happen to them?
