M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
hey BG- Thanks, I have actually been following that thread hadn't read today's stuff though. Thanks! It goes with what I want to say about I am not sharing. I know the time is coming.....
I just got this email from a friend of mine... Really maked me think.
Here is an interesting view on how we judge others.
Not that we hang our laundry outdoors all that much but anymore, still there is a good lesson in this little story.........
A young couple moved into a new neighborhood. The next morning while they are eating breakfast, the young woman saw her neighbor hanging the wash outside. "That laundry is not very clean", she said. "She doesn't know how to wash correctly. Perhaps she needs better laundry soap."
Her husband looked on, but remained silent.
Every time her neighbor would hang her wash to dry, the young woman would make the same comments.
About a month later, the woman was surprised to see a nice clean wash on the line and said to her husband, "Look, she has learned how to wash correctly. I wonder who taught her this."
The husband said, "I got up early this morning and cleaned our windows."
And so it is with life. What we see when watching others depends on the purity of the window through which we look.
My hair is the right color of red! YEAH, she used what my other hair lady had used, and called her sales rep for Chi to see if she can cross them from Redken to Chi, which is what she uses. So the next time I may not like it as much! But this time is good. Had told H on Wed night, I wouldn't be home until 7:00, my appt wasn't until 5:30. Once again he wasn't listening. I get to the car and he had left me a vm on my phone, that he thought I was going to be home at 6:00, and he had waited for me to get home, but was leaving it was around 6:20. So I called him he was still driving, we talked for a bit and he said he was on his way to OW's town. H told me he went to a music store and bought a guitar book and CD, the CD was still playing when he left.
I called my friend Tiff and her H had gone to town to drink so I went out there. Stayed and played with her D who is a little over 2 until around 9:00. I drive by where I think OW lives on my way to and from Tiff's house, but there aren't enough lights to see very well. Watched the end of the Steelers game when I got home. H got home around 10:30. I really didn't talk to him much, told him about someone getting pulled over right behind me on my way home, and my radar detector never went off, I wasn't speeding....I know hard to believe, so I was fine, makes me nervous though that it never went off. This morning, I just got the see you tonight when he left. I think I lost my PMA, I need to see if I can locate it again!
I'm glad that your hair turned out Mt. No other problems are allowed for you right now!
My H could not keep my schedule straight in his head before the MLC. Now it's pretty close to impossible. To some extend I think that's just a guy thing. The fog really makes it worse.
I don't think you lost your PMA. You are one of the most sunshine filled people that I know. I think you are doing remarkable for what you are dealing with. I know how much he is hurting you and you always seem to turn the other cheek.
You are amazing. Some day he will wake up and realize what love you are showing him.
Are you off today or working?
It is very cold here today too. The little pond that I can see from my kitchen window is frozen over. Pretty early for that.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Thanks Hope, It is just the feeling I guess that I need to tell him how I feel, but not wanting to do it, makes it hard. I just hope he wakes up soon, cause I am getting tired and would like to sleep some too. I know I haven't been doing this very long, but feels like a decade especially this time of year. A bit ago, I just got a feeling in the pit of my stomach about I can't imagine my life without him, my hole adult life has been with him. I know that is part of the GAL.
I am off today. It is my Mom's birthday, her cousin sent a clown to her school this morning with balloons, but didn't tell her who did it. She just emailed me and asked if I had done it, I said not me!! I will do dinner for her on Sunday.
WOW, that is cold if the pond is froze over, that makes me cringe!
morning ladies! omg brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr H said the durango temp when he left this morning said 17 and there is still heavy frost even with the sun out. I hate it! and my heating pad just quit working.
so glad the hair turned out good! cant wait to get something done with the little hair i got lol!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Well wasn't the best night I guess you could say. We go to the bank and dinner as per usual, while eating we are talking and H says something about SD24's boyfriend coming to my mom's b-day dinner Sunday. Says something about being drunk and punching him out if he pisses him off by saying the wrong thing and then says my dad should just punch him out for what he is doing. He gets emotional, starts to cry and I tell him that she has to make her own way we can't control her life. H shakes his head. He is still emotional, I said there is nothing you can do about her, you have nothing to do with what she is doing. H says I know, I think the D thing is why I dind't want to do anything all day at work. I am not sure why it is getting to him like it is. We talk some more and I say, You know I am not going to do this forever. (my bourndary sorta) H says I hate what I am doing to you. H says you know she doesn't even compare to you. I said yeah so I have heard. I tell him I don't even know what she looks like. It tell him I have been in there for pizza, but since there are two girls in there, I don't even know which one she is, how sad it that. I say I would like to talk to her. H says WHy? I said well most wifes get that at least, i have been more than nice. H says I know you don't like to start trouble. H says something and my response is I would take you anywhere, well almost anywhere. H says where I said I wouldn't take you to OW's town. H says I wouldn't have you take me there. H says why would you want to go, I said so she knows I am still here. H says she knows.
So we go for a while and H says let's change the subject. So he gets another margarita (I did 2 grandes, he is doing my 3rd and got a 4th) We leave there and go home, go pee, we sit down for a bit and he starts crying and then says I think I will go to the cemetary, I said not alone. So he tells me to get dressed, I had taken off everything but a sweatshirt earlier.
We end up going to Roy's house. Having a great time, playing the Xbox some weird game, on the way there stopped and got a 12 pack, drink while were are there, I get good and drunk now, H is pretty much there too. Roy is having fun, I have to pee, Roy's house isn't very nice so I got outside, H helps me. We do that like three times, each time he is wanting something.... H goes across the street to his brother's house (the one that lives with SIL how ran her mouth) H was laughing saying he was going to bring her back, i said do it! So H finally comes back, after Roy has called twice, one cause I need another beer and the other cause I need to pee. H goes back outside again after that to pee himself and is gone for a while. I have to pee again, We come back in and H is all over me, with his hands all kinds of places, right there in front of Roy. I am too drunk to really care, I go pee again, we have sex outside it is very COLD. Roy thinks we have left, locks the door, I knock we go back in and play a bit more, it is 11:30 so we leave.
On the way home something is said and I say so what did you say to her when you called her earlier. H says what do you mean, I said when you went outside and where gone for so long. I said you don't think I know when you are calling her, H says I know we know each other too well. H said I told her I was drunk I called her now so I wouldn't have to later. (so he can have sex with me instead) I said just like the football game you called her from the restroom didn't you. H finally said yeah, I said that makes me feel good I am sitting there guys coming out of the restroom and you are in there on the cell phone to her, they are looking at me like what a freaking idiot. Well that sets him off. I said sorry I brought it up. I said if you can't live without calling her every night and every morning, why are you with me? H says didn't you tell to stay through Dec? I said yeah and then I told you you could leave whenever you wanted to not too long ago. Why are you with me, H says becasue sometimes we have so much fun togther. I said when don't we have fun together? Like when Tiff and I went to the Concert I told you it wasn't the same, was it the same for you when you took her to the car show. H says you know it wasn't. I said no I dont' I don't know anything, how you feel about her or anything. I said if you arent' happy with me... Why are your here? I said I just want you to be happy. H says no you don't if I am not with you you don't want me to be happy. I said no, I wouldn't still be here if I didn't want you to be happy. It was ugly. It gets back to me and him thinking I had an affair, once again. I said well then we are even then aren't we, H says are you adimitting to it I said no I have nothing to admit to, so he gets out of the jeep. And is now pissed.
We argue some more go in the house. Sit for a a while. H said give me my keys, i said No, you don't need to leave like this so emotional. H says I don't want to stay here, you don't want me here. I said I never said that, H said You said, you weren't going to do this. I said I won't do this forever. H says I will go to a hotel. Then I can sleep, I said you can sleep on the bed I will sleep on the couch. H says no. Two cats started fighting H said you better get Speckles and throw him out or I will get him and kick the Sh*t out of him. So I move the couch can't find him, H is pissed I pick up the dachshund off the couch and H pushed the musical Christmas tree out of the way and breaks the top off so he can flip over the couch and chase the cat to the basement. I take the dogs shut us in the bathroom in the bedroom and go pee, H comes in looking for the cat. DOon't know if he ever found it. I left them in the bedroom and gathered his toothpaste and toothbrush and clothes together for him and brought them out, H says give me my keys so I give him the keys to the jeep and try to give him his clothes and he says I don't want them, and leaves slams the door and then I kick it. Tears out like a bat out of Hell throwing rocks everywhere. So here I am. I really don't feel as bad as I thought, probably the beer.... In the morning this is going to suck really bad.
