I thought I would be ok with this. I was feeling fine about it. Not so much now that the reality has hit!
My L's assistant called this morning to tell me the papers have been signed off by the judge so today is my official "single again" date. I feel completely sick. Unexpected reaction.
I've cried for the last hour off and on. I'm so exhausted from working so much that the emotion is carrying me away.
This totally sucks.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
((((Mishka)))) Sorry you are going through this. The reality does hit, but you will be ok. Try to stay busy to keep your mind off of it (not hard with a teenage son and two jobs!!!!).
first off..I'm sorry..the feelings you have are perfectly normal.
So let's list some positives...
1.if not for all this then you may not have met good friend CG. 2. if not for all this you would have never met you VOR.. 3. broom now has inherited his mess, his problems are no longer your problems..
join me..add to the list..this is not all negative
I like Mike's suggesttion...so let me add to your list.
4. You can dye your hair blue. 5. You can get a nose ring. 6. You can paint your toenails an outrageous shade of green.
Why can you do all this??? Because no one can tell you what you can and can't do!!!
(((Mishka)))
Next???
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
1. less laundry. 2. No more unsightly nose hair trimmings in the bathroom sink. 3. you've met a lot of cool people you would not have met 4. You've been given "powers" that you can now use..congratulations you now know about DAMS and can avoid them at all cost from now on. 5. You have new words and phrases to enlighten all your new friends with..ie. Batchitt crazy, AOMR etc..
The intial shock is the worst, but I promise you this tomorrow will come and if God has his way the sun will shine. D is like a death you need to grieve for it, be angry, be sad like anything major in life it has its steps to go through.
Try and look at this as a new beginning when you are ready, there is nothing but a clean windshield and open road...
Be the mother you need to be for your S13, he will need you more now than ever.
1. This is YOUR life now to do as you wish... 2. It's a new beginning of a new chapter to write as you wish... 3. It takes less muscles to smile than it does to frown, plus frowning causes wrinkles...
1. No more pee on the bathroom seat 2. No more worrying about someone peeing in the shower 3. No more having to be the witness to incessant ball scratching...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Hey Mishka, Sorry, I forgot that it was today, or looming. I am so sorry that you are having a tough time. You've been throuygh so much (I didnt realise that your bomb was christmas day !?) its been such a hard time in your life and you have borne it all with good grace. I know its scant consolation, but you know his life hasnt ended up rosey either, he lost his job and is depressed and most likely miserable. Things with the broom may already be rocky, from what she has said to you. I cant offer anything to make yuo feel better right now, except, you perhaps wont ever feel this low again in life, this has to be it, your one time to suffer and have to go through such painful life experiences, to have to learn such hard lessons.
You have coped amazingly well. I winge and whime and cry and I dont have a mother to take care of and a son that needs me. I thk you are amazing. I dont supose you will be able to think of yourself for a while, I guess this is a grieving period. My auntie took 2 yers from the day her H left until she felt over him and ok, but when she did, wow she felt good. She then met a lovely man she has been with for 17 years (longer than her H). THere are no gaurantees, except that, things keep changing and you wont be stuck in this place weeks/months/a year from now.
Trite, predictable advice hey, but I am telling this to myself as best I can too! Thikning of you with love, Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
I see your posts, but am so overcome by events, I don't post to a lot of people. I completely get the overwhelming feeling. I had planned to be "Served" through my attorney. I did not sign a retainer immediately, so STBX threatened to "Serve me" at work. I WORK IN A HIGH SCHOOL! NICE!!!!
It was like a kick in the stomach. These are so unexpected.
