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Ran to town got a pop at Sonic, then went to the car lots and drove through. Reminded me of something that H said last night, we were looking at some GMC trucks and looked at a 4 door and then an extended cab. H said why do I need a 4 door, the extended cab would be all I would need. Made me think when he said it, if you are wanting a relationship with a women with two kids, you are going to want a 4 door not an extended cab. Just thought of that when I was driving through again tonight.

Hi Sunshine,

I'm glad to hear that you had such a nice evening last night.

I visited with my S22 this afternoon and he saw the Bond movie last night too. He did not like it much either. Said that it was ok, the acting was good, but he said that the story was not what he expected. He said it was not like he expected a Bond movie to be.

I am babysitting for my little grandson. My S25 and his fiance when out together and I am watching the baby so that they could have their evening out.

I enjoyed seeing both of my boys today. The alien came home this morning from hunting...and I am getting tired of his verbal abuse.

I hope you have a great time at the game tomorrow. Keep warm and drink some Rum for me!

hey girlie, finally getting to watch the game!! got a few things to tell my girls oh and tomato later lol!!!

so sorry hope, praying for you both.

Good Morning!

Yesterday was the best! Other than we lost! H was in a good mood and we were sitting by fun people. H was happy he was next to a cute blonde and her H that had flown in from new orleans for the game. She was a talker. It was weird, she talked to us, mostly H cause he was next to her the whole game, I have never been the jelouse type, and today I felt even more detached I guess. I talked to the guys in front and beside me more than H all day. I think she even annoyed H some because she never shut up. There were two guys in front of me that were staioned at one of the local bases, and two guys beside me. H's friend and his son were there too, he sat behind us before the game then went to their seats, and was laughing cause I was already dancing and had only had 1 rum runner at that point. Our group around us and a couple of people behind us, all wanted to stand, but the people behind us kept getting security to make us sit down. I wanted to tell these people to stand up and cheer. I kept wanting to be on the fan came on the jumbo tons, and the guy in front of me kept trying to get me on! Then Scott Fujita who plays for New Orleans, used to be a chief, so I kept yelling his name, then the guys infront me were trying to get him too. I finally got a thumbs up from him. The New Orleans players weren't as friendly as the Tenn players were a month ago. The couple from new orleans said the whole group isn't very friendly, don't like to sign autographs. The guys in front wanted to see Reggie Bush, but he didn't make the trip. Even though we lost and Herm punted when we were on the 39 yard line, it was a fun game. It is much easier to watch the game at home. Half the time when I am there, I have no idea what the score it, because the score is on the end zone ends and we sit on the sidelines and I don't look that way. H also says, cause I am drinking too.
On the way home, H asked if I wanted to stop at my mom and dads and get their old diesel truck to load with some scrap metal we have. It was just like H of old, we talked there about football picks and stuff for about 30 min. Made me think again about my boundary, because everything seems nice. He and I both thought about our going out with my Mom and Dad comment that H had made on Friday when we were drinking.
Came home and H was funny, he was wearing under armor leggings under his jeans and took off his jeans and I said he looked like a football player. I was coming out of the bedroom and H throws me the football and then tackles me on the bed, it was funny. We laid on the couch and watched the cowboys and redskins game. We messed around and flirted some and then had sex. When he was putting his pants back on the dog wanted to go out so he went out with his phone.

At this point, I was thinking am I ready to put my boundary out there on Monday, I was really having second thoughts since he didn't go over and visit her after we got home like he has done in the past, and he is doing things like wanting to haul off the scrap metal. So this morning, I had to be nosy to see how long he was on the phone with her last night. On his phone he had called her twice, I thought that is odd, well there was a call at 4:22. We went to a McDonalds cause we both needed to use the restroom. He had to sh*t, was in there for a while, well he was in there for 3 min on the phone with her. That pissed me off so much. While I sat there waiting 2 boys went in and then two of the Dads did too. So I am thinking, they are in there with him, he is on the phone talking to her, and I am sitting out there waiting. I was having good thoughts about us, and then he calls her from the Sh*tter. So here I am back again to wanting to do my boundary.

How can you be having fun with someone and then call someone else. Or how can you have sex with me and 10 min later be calling your girlfriend. I am just flabbergasted, from his actions at this point. I sent him with his union paperwork today, so hopefully he will get that all turned in today. I think I am ready to tell him tonight, he has to make a choice I cannot keep doing this. I love spending time with him, but I don't want to only be happy part of the time and wandering the rest of the time.

Mt read my post and think please

K- your post makes me second guess myself again! I am just so confused and lost, I feel I guess like H to a point. I know I am not confused like him, but I am still lost to an extent. I know know one can tell me when it is time for me to make a stand. I just hate that I am at this point in my life. I think of H and then I think of OW, and I think what makes him feel he needs her?

MT-honey I didn't mean to confuse you. A lot of us are confused right now. Way confused, but not if that makes any sense. You, my dear, need to establish your boundaries. But you also need to know the one you are talking about could possibly make him walk. You will be asking him to choose. He hasn't done that yet. You need to be ready to do it and ready to face the consequences of whatever choice he makes. I don't know if you are yet. Especially since one good day made you not want to do it at all.

I did it once. I was prepared. To this day after 8 years, I don't know why H didn't walk then. His words to me were and still are "I gave myself an extension". I have spent 8 years waiting for it to expire. Talk about pins and needles.

I think, besides seeing where I"m at and how much all of you have helped me, I wanted you to read what I said about time and stepping back. Probably if you see what Ali posted after and maybe follow the link she put on there in an earlier comment, you might see it a little better. You know what you want to say, now you need to know when to say it. No you can't go on sharing him forever. But are you ready to have him leave? Are you ready to be alone? Are you strong enough yet to handle it if he does? And are you able to forgive, truly forgive, if he stays?
Or even strong enough to try wholeheartedly? Sometimes a step outside of ourselves is necessary. Oh my God I sound just like someone I know who's butt I want to kick right now. LOL

I wouldn't say anything until you are ready to pay the piper either way.

K- I know I have to be ready to handle what will come no matter what happens. I think when I get mad is when I feel more like I need to do it. But I don't stay mad at him for very long, have never been able to. H calling her from the restroom really bothers me. If that is the case I need to say, I can't do this. I hate it is the holidays and that this is happening at all. When I wake up in the morning, I still feel like it is all a dream. I wake up and all is good, then reality hits and it just sucks. I appreciate that I have to ready to be alone and that he will leave. I think to myself, how could he leave we are so good together, Hell people tell him how great we are. But then I think I am just a fool, and it doesn't matter. Whatever is going on in his head is what he is listening too. I almost want to borrow a car that he doesn't know and sit there at the store and see him interact with OW. I think that might make me realize what I need to do, if I could see them together.

Thanks for everything K!