i love and have for so long firmly believe in that thread title of your's this time BobbiJo. Keep that beginners mind at work. God bless you and your's my dear.
I am starting from scratch here. It is prob. easier b/c H is across the country from me! (I am in Iowa, he is in CA for his trip.)
We talked on the phone a couple times yesterday, plus had a couple rounds of texting. Everything was neutral/positive. Nothing flowery, romantic, but also nothing negative/hurtful. I am just going back to square one, making sure that any/all interactions with H at this point are enjoyable and/or non-eventful. H has made it clear he is afraid, scared to try again. I figure that if we can have positive interactions with one another, when he is reflecting on 'us', there will be less to be afraid of....
Sounds like a lot of overthinking. It isn't. I am just treating him like, well, my husband, the guy I love. That is not too hard to do. And it is easy (for now anyway) not to have any R talk b/c I think I finally "get" that now is not the time.......goodbye to that cheeseless tunnel.
OK back to work! Going to go run after school today. Shooting for 3 miles...
Thanks, I feel better today! Talked to H again this morning. His mom is sick--she had surgery last week for a tumor in her bladder. Docs say it looks like cancer, but test results back in another week...
Meanwhile she says this morning she has a really bad bladder infection. Well, that is what took her to the dr. in the first place, when they found the tumor. I am concerned that it isn't a bladder infection, but a complication from surgery or something else...she is going to the dr. later today....