so, axH called me late in the afternoon and asked if we can all go out for lunch tomorrow. I happily agreed and we talked for a while. Among others he asked me if I am flying to NY again because he remembered the airline offers I sent him. I said no and he said next time he is not letting me go alone because he wants to go too and he wants to go with me...
I told him that I sent him the email because this is something we should do sometime in the future (travel like we used to), he filled in my sentence for me with "but... I didnt "get it", did I?" and was laughing... He sounds very relaxed and I now believe he is for a fact DBing me.
I asked him what his plans are for tomorrow night, if he is going out with friends etc, smiling, and he answered something like "no, of course not, if we are not together I will get some sleep".
In the meantime I feel sad and a little bit upset. For no particular reason. Maybe because I am a bit numb and I feel I am loosing my... "shine". I tried to listen to some "happy" songs but I cant relate to happy at the moment. But I am ok. Things seem to get more clear in my head and I know I am doing the right thing.
So, I ll go back to reading Passionate marriage and finish my wine. K
Sometimes time doesnt heal No, not at all It just stands still While we fall... ................ In or out of love...
mish, namedays are the days the names of saints are honored here (Orthodox Church). So the day "our name" is celebrated, people pay us visits without calling or being invited and we must have sweets and stuff to offer to the guests. We get presents, people call us etc.. It's just like a birthday, only everybody knows when your nameday is and remember to wish you happy nameday. Older people celebrate it more than birthdays... K
It sounds lik you had a really positive conversation with H, and great news about lunch tomorrow.
I know this is hard- it's tough to open yourself up to the risk of being hurt, and you need time to get used to the idea. I'm pleased he's behaving himself and laughing at himself- I think it's a good sign.
Your H really is coming around isn't he? Let it flow over you Maria. Accept what he can give right now. You'll find your way back to loving him, I can just feel it.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
"Things seem to get more clear in my head and I know I am doing the right thing." Not 100% sure what you mean but it looks like are indeed doing the right thing and so is H. Try not to let all kinds of feelings mess things up; also DAM or not H may still make some missteps, try not to rush to judge him. Pray. My 2c for the day.
