Thanks for looking in on me- it really meant a lot to come here tonight and see your messages. Things are OK at work- I guess I might have been working a bit too hard because I've just felt horrible today. For the first time ever I had an anxiety dream about H last night- reliving the moment when I worked out he was having an A and I woke up feeling just as awful as I did the first day I realised it. So I didn't sleep well and then my head hurt all day.
Meanwhile I've ended up having to do a lot (all) of the stuff the rest of my team was supposed to be doing. Mainly because when they do things it's a bit hard work to wade through it and we don't have time to do that right now. It's not the easiest of situations as I'm rushed off my feet and they're swanning around laughing and joking, not coming to work most days and then telling me not to work too hard. I asked them to do some bits last night though and this morning they gave me a hard time about it. Annoying thing number 2 (anxiety dream was number 1).
Then the third annoying thing was that the annoying girl who fancies CEO sent me an e-mail with a joke in it asking if CEO and I went out for a date last night. Well, I felt like saying to her, no. We both worked until 9pm last night and got really frustrated with the rest of you slackers being rubbish.
*sigh* That's the moan over. I think I'm going to have a lie-in tomorrow before carrying on with more work (again) for the foreseeable future.
On the plus side CEO seems to have a few irons in the fire for approaches to raise money. It's going to take a while- he probably won't have a clear idea of whether things have been successful for a month or so yet, so fingers crossed. There's not been too much flirting this week. A bit of good eye contact; he showed me his lasered eyes a few times so there was a lot of eye contact then. I also noticed him looking at my lips yesterday when we were speaking, and he spent a lot of time looking at me yesterday when he was really supposed to be talking to fancies-him girl. I haven't been flirting with him much, especially today when I was just walking around fuming. What was even worse was that people thought I was being stroppy. Grrrrr. I think I just need a break.
And maybe to be a bit nicer to him. He's pretty stressed- he was having a bit of a meltdown yesterday evening and I hope I was helpful, although I did offer solutions which I know is a no-no. One positive thing is that he told me he might have found a place for 2 of the team to go and work- me and him. That's pretty nice of him (and pragmatic seeing as he seems to think the others are pants).
No news from H so not much to report on that front.
((((all))))) Times are wierd, and I wish things would get back to normal!
I think that between you and CEO you will come up with something to keep the company alive! I hope so, since then he has to keep away from you, as you'll still be his employee!
I'm so glad to hear what's going on in your world. You are such a hard worker!!!!! At work, at DB!!! does stroppy mean... b*%#$y? I like how CEO is formulating both a) company-saving plans and b) od & ceo escape hatch plans!!
