I feel the same about a long cold winter and the feeling lonely bit. I push myself to see people, be around them, but even amongst good friends, I feel alone. IS that what you meant?
Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
I have the same feelings regarding feeling alone....even when I am amongst friends, I am in a rush to go elsewhere (it's like a wave hits me)...difficult to explain. All this takes time....like when a loved one passes away. The difference is that the loved one is still lingering around (because of the kids etc.) and it takes time to detach totally. Perhaps it is not really loneliness we are feeling but simply that we miss the other person or rather we are so used to "being" with our spouse. Old habits are hard to break I guess.
By the way Woog...rhumour has it that you may make your way to my neck of the woods. I would take it as a personal insult if you do not look me up.
I feel that most of my real-life friends know almost nothing about me anymore. They have no idea the thoughts that are in my head 90% of the time. That is by choice, I don't want them knowing all of that stuff...I feel safer telling you. But then it leaves me feeling that no one I am around really "gets" me anymore...don't know if that is at all what you feel or not, sorry if I am hijacking.
Even in a group I too feel lonely b/c I often feel I am putting on a display of humor, good spirits, etc. when I just want to run outside and get away sometimes..
Sorry Woog. The winter wouldn't be so lonely and cold if a green eyed lady was by the fire with ya........
it is true, your sitch went so much faster than for the rest of us. Having maybe my worst days so far even before the bomb -I doubt it if you would recognize me, I have been crying so much I look like a zombie- I wish mine was over and done also... But lately the Universe is delivering to me my wishes, only with huge delay...
You are alone, but like you tell me, I am thinking of you, always... I love you K
I agree fb2. I keep hearing the song, "Time for a cool change." Remember that one. I am new to this thread, but somehow I feel close to all of you. I don't know why.
Woog, My sitch raced along a lot faster than everyone else I started with on these boards too. I don't know where you are in your process, but now, mine has come to a standstill. And, it hurts so much even now more than ever not knowing what my spouse is thinking/planning/doing. He wanted to get the D over with by the end of summer, and here we are in Fall and he has not filed. I just don't understand.
Kalni and all, I think crying is a good thing. I went for years without a tear in my eye, and now there are streams at times. They haven't turned into rivers yet, but I'm waiting for them. I hear a pristine river is one of God's greatest gifts.
My mood is still dark and somber. I had a dream last night that really distrubed me and I couldnt go back to sleep.
You know... back in college (based on a movie I love) when my buddies and I were dealing with crap we'd "road trip" to vegas. Anyone else up for it? It seems like a few of us could use it.
Love to join you but my road trip to south FLA. is around the corner!!!! You are right, I am one of those who needs it....i haven't looked forward to a week away in a long time. Actually the last time I was jacked was the year that South FLA got hit very hard by a hurricane (luckily 2 weeks before we left). We settled for a Virginia golf holiday....not the same.
You seemed to be heading in the right direction and then something happened......anything to do with NYC?
