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Those pumkins were awesome!! I love Halloween, it is my favorite holiday. This will be the first year since we had kids that I won't be taking the kids to his parents to trick or treat. Maybe we can decorate some on Monday since I took the day off.

kat

Thanks Kat. Today has been kinda hard for me. I have been really stressed here at work. Then I go home and do homework with the kids and get them situated and into bed, then do my homework until late. I feel like I'm a hampster stuck on a wheel, constantly running but not really getting anywhere. I'm just kinda Boo Hoo and emotional today. Nothing major, but sometimes the enormity of what has happened just hits me and I think, "Wow!" I guess this all started about this time last year, so maybe thats it. The realization that he has now been involved with her for a year... I don't know, I'm just sad and lonely.

(((Corey)))

Its ok to be sad sometimes. Makes happy feel that much better. You may feel lonely, but remember you are not alone!

Take care.

There will come a day my dear when you are ok with your life and the people who are in it. Make your life how you want it. cut back where you need to. I used to be dreadfully lonely but now, not so much. It will all come in time as you get on with YOUR life.

Hugs Corey.

kat

Hi Corey,

You are a great lady with alot of blessings. I was told to write down all my blessings/positives recently. When you have that reminder in front of you, it helps take away the boo hoo days.

All, the pumpkins aren't that difficult to create. They sell books of them in the halloween sections at the store. It's a stencil that you put on the pumpkin, use an included tool to dot all around the stencil and then cut it out. Voila! Awesome pumpkins!

Yeah but kudos to Corey for all the cool ones she has done!

kat

Oh definately! I couldn't agree more!

Suga, same for me. Been about a year when I finally figured it out. At this point, not really sad. I think I feel more stupid more than anything. I'm a little lonely, but not too much. I'm back at the point where I just want to say F it. Let her do what she is going to do. I'm not waiting anymore. Just gonna take life as it comes and enjoy the the things that I can.

Feel better.

Thanks H4H, stupid is pretty much how I feel too. I feel stupid for putting myself through this. I feel stupid for thinking that there could be a chance for us. Mainly I just feel stupid because in the end I still love him...don't know why, but I do and it makes me so sad because its obviously not reciprocated. Or not in the way I need it to be. Just more emotional lately. The closer it gets, the more emotional I seem to get. Not clingy to him or anything, but just find myself thinking about things and wondering how it all went so wrong and feeling sad. I'm lonely because I choose to be. I think that if I were to put myself out there, I would be tempted to find me some alphabet boys to raise my self esteem and I'm not sure I would Want to resist that temptation, so I just don't tempt myself.

Yep, seems the stupid flu has got us all. Must be a vaccine somewhere. Or maybe it's just trying to do the right thing. Still quite a bit of stupidity to these sitchs. Try and keep yourself up and your spirit strong.