Wow, one year - that is coming up for me in a few weeks too. Look how much you have grown though, I remember back in July when you were dreading the first of the month and now you approach these things with real strength.
I think it is ok to feel it today, I agree that although this has been so tough, I wouldn't really change it happening as I have learned so much and I think I am a better person for it. Lets hope that a new amazing relationship can bloom from this but still know that we will be ok, whether this happens or not.
You have been a real source of strength to me Lola and I love to see how far things have come for you.
Thank you Julia. I do know I will be okay either way, but I am a little sad today knowing that a year has passed by so quickly. But I also remember the pain I was in back then, and I am not there anymore. I have managed to move past that. I still love my H with all my heart, and I always will. But I have changed. I am a different person. I am stronger, and realize I can handle anything God throws at me...because there is always a reason.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
You are VERY strong and remarkable!! Take today not to dwell on the fact that it has been a year apart but reflect on it as a year that you have grown into a stronger more amazing woman!
Funny enough, my office manager was supposed to pick me up this morning, and she forgot, so I get to see H this morning...he is on his way!!! Strange how things work out!
It is when I feel down the most that something happens to make me feel okay. Although I know this is not the ideal situation, it has given us time to spend together, and for that I am very grateful!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Well if you only found DBing 5 months ago, then I think you're in a great position! Of course those initial 7 months were going to set you back a bit, but I bet you have made truckloads of progress since then!!!
Also you'll be seeing your H today. I truly think you are on the right path now. Pisces told me once that once you get to stage 2 you're really on the path to reconciliation, and seems like you're solidly in stage 2 :).
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
It was cute...he gave me a smile when I got in the car, and eyes automatically wandered down to the boobs.
Typically male...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
It has been a while since he smiled when I got in the car...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I'm so glad to hear the strength in your posts Lola. You are a true inspiration. Thank you for being a guiding force here. I know I appreciate more than I could ever express in words.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
