Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I know that he loves me but I get scared sometimes that he'll finally choose to give her what she wants. I know we're D but I keep thinking of the EA he had and how he used to meet her for lunch too only this time it wouldn't be an EA it would be legit. There's nothing I can do about THAT though is there. I'm feeling a little sick right now.
Last night he said he learned his lesson by working on Saturdays and I told him "now you realize that, it's good that you did but why couldn't you have learned that months ago?" It's sad that he had to leave to realize working on Saturdays wasn't good. Now his saturdays are for him when they were never for family
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Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
but I keep thinking of the EA he had and how he used to meet her for lunch too only this time it wouldn't be an EA it would be legit.
Leave the past in the PAST!!! You are getting upset over something that you don't even know for sure....Are you 100% sure he is meeting Roomate chick for lunch???
You need to just get this out of your head now before you start building up some scenario in your head. Go for a walk...read a book. Just stop over-analyzing xH lunch plans!! NOW!! That's an order!!!!
I will and yes it's going to make me upset with him for nothing that I know for sure and even if he is with her for lunch there's nothing I can do....I soon have to get D from school.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
....life sucks and all I want to do is come out swinging!!!
Our MC told me once when I was whining about the W filing for D, moving out, splitting up the family etc. Told me, "it's s*cks to be you" I was thinking I am paying for this advice?! So how do you stop feeling that way? You just go and take care of your business, have some fun and keep on lovin. You can handle it. Cheers ps - No throwing punches
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
Well, I called him to see if he was coming with me to get D. Turns out he hasn't gotten the manual yet nor has he eaten lunch. He's still in the offices. hmmmm
Pees cooling off
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
Jen! Jen, Jen, Jen, Jen.... WHEN ARE YOU GONNA LEARN !!??? God I wish I were in your shoes, having the chances you have... Your H TELLS you what he is up to, which is positive.. and then you respond with
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he said he had to go to a company to pick up a manual at 11:00 am so he didn't know. I asked him if that would take 2 hours and then he said he'd have to eat lunch.
... do you think that was the right reaction??? How do you think that would have made him feel? Questioned? Hemmed in? Disapproved of? Controlled? Manipulated? What was your intention in asking him that?
Maybe you should stop pointing the finger at the manipulative ow..?
Your not M anymore! He can do what he likes! If you really want this guy back, you have to look within and stop trying to control him. Please, pretty please! Do it for all of us here that are barely (or not even) in touch with our WAS?
this isnt a 2x4, its an outsiders observation !? Al xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
