Well he got some good news from the army, well good for him. I am seriously going to lose my mind if we don't get our marriage pulled back together before he leaves. I don't want to be left behind.
We talked a bit about that yesterday and then tried to make plans for tomorrow (Monday) and when I told him that I missed him he said that he misses me too. Which is a good thing. I miss hearing I love you, but I miss you works for right now.
However today he cancelled those plans but as soon as he did he asked what I am doing Tuesday. So he is not blowing me off altogether. I have to admit that it hurts though, when he cancels plans. Even if we make new ones I always feel a little rejected. I need to be stronger so that I do not center my world around him as much.
Anyways we are making plans for Tuesday so I guess I will have to wait until then to see him. It's not that far away but I feel like I am going to go insane anyways.
Hi Daisy....it is disapointing that he cancelled for Monday but you are right it is very good that he rescheduled right away and didn't leave it in the air.
You can be stronger in the GAL category so that you can have something else that can occupy your time so if he is ever unable to make it. Then you will not be so disapointed.
Just hang in there chippie!! Everything will hopefully fall into place before he has to leave.
Well we did make plans for Tuesday so that will be ok. I am proud of myself that I did not let my disapointment show. Definatly a 180 for me not to get mad and throw a fit! Wish I was joking. . .
So tomorrow I will go to work as planned and then try to get together with my own friends at night. Or maybe come home and work out and then get some writing done since this weekend was a bust. I just felt down.
I need to start putting the focus back on my own life. I am pretty good at this until I go three or four days without seeing him and then I can't seem to focus on anything else. Grrr. Why can't I get the boy outta my head!
Oh well. I am hoping to be able to talk about this army business a little on Tuesday just to see where he stands on things and what he is thinking. Should be interesting.
What would happen if you didn't bring up the R and his Army training on Tuesday? What would happen if you acted as if everything was ok just for that day?
Just wondering if the "try something new" mantra of DB might work here.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
I'm not sure actually. Army stuff has always been a stress that we have handled together and is not usually a sorce of conflict. I will feel it out and see if he brings it up in a way that suggests he wants to talk about it. Things have been set in motion and decisions will need to be made soon. He has a meeting tomorrow with one of his Sergents so we will probably talk a little tomorrow about this and will probably go more in depth on Tuesday. But I will steer clear of unecessary relationship talks if any are needed in the first place.
Thanks for the question though. Made me think it through!
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
Thanks for checking in on me. I'll write a bigger update later when I get home from work but things went really well. Even had some R talks that didn't end in disaster! Always a plus
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
