That sucked big time. Back to school night at the middle school for D12. Seeing all the parents there together was painful. Oh, it's in no way as painful as before. It's more like a very sharp knife between the ribs, the steel is so sharp, there is just a burning whereas before it was the rending tearing shredding of the chainsaw going slowing through the flesh.
W is sick or maybe sinus infection so a) she wants me to drive the kids to school in the morning and b) isn't up for what we had planned for Saturday. I'll see if there is something else to do on Saturday that is fun and gives us an opportunity to spend time together without giving me lots of empty space where I would be tempted to fill it with R talk and especially accusations of infidelity that she is currently denying. I'm not ready for that conversation yet and certainly not on a day that she is spending with me for my birthday.
I'm breathing, but, I may need some fermented agave to help tonight.
Everyone have a good night. Without this place I'm pretty sure I'd be a complete wreck instead of only 75%.
I have back to school night tonight. W is going too. I'm sure it will be ok, but I've been hitting a rough patch lately so it's going to be tough all the same.
If only we could avoid the virtual sharp implements...I somehow found the chainsaw again...don't ask me how. Ill trade you for your knife.
Good luck on Sat.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
I'm supposed to spend the day with W for my birthday. I told her where we were going and she said "Maybe I should be there closer to 9 instead of 10." It's 9:35 and her phone is still off. I just hope that I can keep my frame of "I don't need you" together and avoid ALL RELATIONSHIP TALK today. It's kind of hard knowing that she sure isn't leading the life she is portraying to me.
