Hi Daisy!! Thanks for your input. Yes I have brought up counseling to him and laughed and said, "You know I don't like talking to anyone", I even (before DB) told him he needed help and should talk to someone even if just Individual Counseling and got "Yea maybe, I don't know".
Jen & Lola!!!! LMAO you guys are too funny!! So the beer at 9am not classy? Maybe he'll enjoy skanky??? :P
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I feel sad today. I was GAL and went to a craft show with my friend. While there I saw some bracelets that I knew H would like and it was a struggle not buying any of them for him as I would have in the past. Then I dropped my friend off and I am home alone and just feel like crying. It sucks that he is such a dork....I wish this process would go alittle faster. I haven't heard from him since he stopped by Friday after work.
I know that there have been a few baby steps in the right direction but sometimes it scares me to think that there is a possibility the he will never want to make it work.
Sooo I was having this super realistic dream that H was in the bed with me touching my back....then one of the neighbors blasted their radio causing me to jump out of my dream....it was so life like though that when I woke up I still felt his hands on my back ......but it was all a dream and as usual he was not there.
LoL Yea...today is Labor Day ...No work...Wooo HOOO!!!! I've just been keeping myself busy, reading other people's situations on here...I gave myself a mani/pedi and I have been working on a purse that I am making. Tonight I think I am just going to have a beer and enjoy a movie!!
I know (as $$ is tight right now) I have been hanging out more with friends that know I am broke so we have been doing "economical" fun things..lol. I also have started sewing handbags again. It's a hobby I took up last year but when the M problems started I sort of laid off it for a while. Now I have a new pattern that I am working on so that is keeping me busy on days when I have no plans.
Another good note is that I start the new part-time job this Sat which will have me out of the house more and help me with the finances. I have also been sendin out resumes like crazy as **Thanks Goodness** there seems to be a lot of job openings in my career.
**Side note - I don't think I posted it before but because of H "acting out" he became irresponsible and wasn't helping out with the bills like he should have and messed up my credit...which unfortunatly caused me to get demoted soon after he left, hence the $$ problems now. I no longer blame him completely for this...and since DR and here I don't even bring up the $ problems unless he asks a specific question.
......but it was all a dream and as usual he was not there.