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Hey, Sara! Hope you had a good weekend!!! Karen

I did have a great weekend. Things are really going well with this new fellow. He is just SO nice and we really like each other. It is so strange to find myself having feelings for someone new. The only thing that is standing in my way is xh. He called me while I was on a date! How embarassing. I didn't answer the phone, but still.

I did finally talk to xh last night. I explained to him that I am dating someone and it makes for a very uncomfortable situation when he is calling me. I wouldn't mind talking to him now and then, but every single day needs to come to an end. I hope he understands that his calling all of the time is close to harassment. He told me last night that he will never get over me and that sometimes just out of no where it hits him how much he hurt me and he feels so guilty and bad about it. I told him that was good because maybe it will remind him to never do that to another person ever again. He said that he has a sexual addiction (something that I had said years ago in MC) and doesn't know if he will ever be able to stop cheating on women. Isn't that just sad and messed up???

I do like my xh. I just can't be talking to him all of the time. He has issues he has to work on alone. And I am trying to move ahead with my life. I am excited about the guy I have been dating. I haven't felt this way in so long. I can actually see things heading towards a relationship with him and I like the thought of that. We have only been dating for 3 weeks, but I already can see how he treats women so much better than my xh ever did. All around this man is SO much better than my xh (and my goodness this guy is a GREAT kisser!)

Sara

(((Sara)))

Lol.

Glad you had a nice weekend.

I like the boundary setting with XH.

I am glad you had a good weekend Sara.

I just can't believe how much your xh calls you. Haven't heard from mine, I can't imagine. I think you are handling it great though.

So how about this new guy? Where did you meet him? What does he do? Sounds like you two are hitting it off! I am not going to tell you to be careful because you are vulnerable...you already know that Have fun!!!

XH did not call yesterday. Maybe he got the message that I don't need to be talking to him every day. I know he is having a difficult time, but he sure wasn't there for me when I was having my difficult time (oh yeah....he was the cause of it!).

This new guy I met online. But we actually went to high school together and graduated the same year. I only sort of remember him. He sells RV's and boats and was selling cars. He has his own house, 2 cars and a motercycle, and has never been married. We like a lot of the same things (music, tv shows, movies, find same things funny) and can spend hours talking and wonder where the tmie has gone.

I know that I am vulnerable, but I sure dont' feel like I am. My marriage has been over unoffically for 2 years now. That is when H and I stopped ML, when I first found out about the prostitute and when he stopped acting like someone who loved me. It is so nice to be getting attention from such a great guy. He isn't the cutest man in the world. He is losing his hair (he is 32), and isn't someone I typically would go for looks wise. But he is just so nice and funny. We did talk about what was going on between us and we both agreed that if things keep progressing the way they have been, we could be in a relationship. But we also said that we don't want to move too fast. He has little desire to get married any time soon to anyone, so I find that to be a good thing because that is the last thing I want. I think it is a good sign that we were able to talk about relationships and that we are on the same page.

Wow, you must have gone to a big high school to only barely remember this guy! Our schools are fairly small.

I am glad you have so much in common. It is refreshing to be able to be comfortable around someone .

Having this new guy in your life right now is probably a good thing....I am sure it is helping you be able to set boundaries with xh. You sound good Sara...so much better than just a few months ago. I am glad you are having a good time.

My graduating class had 500 people in it. I was involved in theatre and choir, so I knew the people that did that. He was involved in repairing cars and was into that scene. I receognized his name (and actually I figured out that we were in the same 2nd grade class), but didn't remember what he looked like. But it really doesn't matter because he has lost about 100 pounds since high school! Wow!

I am doing better. I still have my moments where I just feel sad. But overall I am feeling better.

I have been reading a book called "Formerly a Wife." It has been really helpful to me. The author goes through the feelings she had and thoughts she had right after her divorce from her cheating husband. I realize (yet again) that what I am feeling and thinking is perfectly normal! The book even said that it is common for the ex to call you to dump all of his problems on you especially the first few months after divorce. Well that is what I am going through right now. I don't answer the phone very often when I see it is him, but sometimes I have moments of weakness and pick up. He is so miserable right now. Is still trying to break up with the OW (who now has her ex bf living with her! Strange!), hates living alone, hates how guilty he feels for hurting me etc etc etc. I do feel sorry for him, but I can't do anything about it. He made the choice to leave me. I tried with all I could to work on the marriage, but I couldn't do it all single handedly. He made the choice to leave and now has to live with it.

I have been busy with church and guitar lessons and work. My goodness....this year's kids are pretty wild! Bad behaviors all over the place plus very low in academics. It is a challenge to face this year for sure. Plus I have also been seeing that man that I went to high school with now and then. We both agreed that we need to go slowly into a relationship, but I think we both can see this turning into something really good. He is just so nice and kind to me. He really listens to me and jokes around with me. It is a very nice change from what I was accustomed to.

Sara

(((Sara)))

Love how good you are sounding.

The GAL sounds awesome.

As does your guy lol.

Wow! Wow! Wow! He sounds wonderful!!! Does he have a (tall) brother??? Karen