I'm so proud of you.. you're handling all of this with an amazing dignity. Your H, as he is now, is very undeserving of a moment of your time or a crumb of your oreo cookies. I hope you and he will be able to remain cordial so that you can continue working at your dream job!!!
Now as for songs.... I am completely in love with this song by State of Shock .
Darling, Trip, Thanks for stopping by. I need to check out your thread. I've seen the title, and it makes me happy. I just haven't had a chance to take a closer look, but I will.
Ms. Whey - that song was a little too heartbreaking for me! Music is so powerful. My alarm is set to the radio and twice I've woken to the Linkin Park song, "Shadow of the Day" and the line, "sometimes 'goodbye' is the only way" and I just kind of knew what decision needed to be made. Since I usually wake up before my alarm even goes off, was it a sign or fluke? ;-)
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence
Dear Ms. Imp, Be sure to go out tonight and take some time to watch the Perseid meteor shower. Make a thousand wishes! And, may they all come true!
Me: 59 H: 59 Together: 28 years Married: 25 years in August "There may be someone else" 12/26/07 H signed a one year lease 4/1/08 H moved out 5/11/08 H beginning to show a tiny amount of interest 7/5/08 Is it possible that he is courting me? 9/30/08
How did I forget about the Perseid's? They are usually great and worth staying up for, especially since they happen in the summer. Unfortunately, it has been cloudy and rainy here for what seems like months.
ms imp - stay strong, stay you and don't let the pod people take over your wonderful inner self.
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I left an anniversary card for my husband last night with a note regarding the division of certain assets and my request to be reimbursed for replacement items. The card I found was almost perfect and I was able to add a few words here or there to change the present tense to past tense, etc. My note was somewhat benign (but even "benign" with me flows with love to an extent). I basically told him how I felt four years ago and how I felt today. He didn't get home until late, but after he read the card and letter and showered he came into my room, sat on the bed, and asked, "What are we doing, 'pet name'?"
We talked for a long time. We laughed some. I told him how much it hurt me that he used me for sex and he swears that's not what he meant by saying he was "horny" - and should have said he enjoyed the connection/intimacy part of it and hoped/thought I did too. He says he wants me to be happy; that he hates that I haven't been happy for so long. We both said how much we missed each other.
I'm not sure what the future holds at this point. I don't know if too much damage has been done. I don't know if I want to reconcile. I don't even know for certain what he really wants. I doubt he knows...
WHY DID IT TAKE SO LONG TO GET HIS ATTENTION?
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence
I like you love music as it can sometimes speak to our situation, but I certainly don't think that the line from the song held anykind of hidden message.
So H seems to be having second thoughts. I doubt the card alone brought him to this. Maybe he has been questioning this for a while but didn't know how to approach it. Anyway, you're smart enough and have been through enough to not jump the gun, but it sounds to me as if you still love your H so why not hear him out? I'm sure that this is as scary for you as the thought of divorce, simply because you're afraid of being hurt again, you wouldn't be normal if you weren't.
Actions speak louder than words, and by now you know what you'll need to get from him in order to be able to trust him again.
Good luck Sweetie. I'm sure that everyone here will be rooting for you!
