Thanks so much for checking in on me... you are right, I'm lucky to have such wonderful, loving sons (even though sometimes I could wring their necks!)
Yea, it's interesting that reality is already feeling enough different to H that he hasn't made the next step that OW wants, a step that he was waxing poetically about to her just a couple of months ago. However, he's not making any movement toward me, just not leaving our kids, our home and our family life together...at least not yet.
I've spent the last few months thinking about/working on what my life will look like, and how to move forward with him gone...I pretty much had some basic tenets and goals. Does that change if he doesn't go, but also doesn't want to work on our R? I don't know.
You should still create the life you want and if you are lucky he will want to join you in it. We are doing 2 movie night this week. Check out the Fun forum to see if you are game.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Those old expectations huh ?? I dont see a lot of them any more . Looking forward to seeing your part of the world , just how hot is it ? its not too warm here LOL
"Yea, it's interesting that reality is already feeling enough different to H that he hasn't made the next step that OW wants, a step that he was waxing poetically about to her just a couple of months ago. However, he's not making any movement toward me, just not leaving our kids, our home and our family life together...at least not yet."
I didn't get lost in the corn fields of Iowa...but I did have trouble finding my own thread, it's been so long!!
I'm doing okay...missing S18 some days (as is H, bigtime!)
Just bumping myself (that sounds like it's illegal in many states ;)). Will start catching up soon!
Hope all are dry and safe.
L2
Oh, and SUnny...no movement quite yet, but my 'inquiring mind' (and eyes) think something may be happening soon...now in what direction, I have no clue!
Thanks for checking in on me...I'm okay. I'm here, been keeping up with folks, just way too busy with too much work, school (taking a really tough class again this semester) and other stuff. And in truth, having a tough time figuring out how to talk about what's been going on in my sitch over the past month...
Can't sleep tonight so I'll start a little now; then work my way through. Sadly, the reason sleep eludes me is primarily that H is gone tonight to OW's for the first time in almost 3 weeks. 2 weeks ago I would have posted that I had some real hope that things might be moving in my direction...H had more-or-less (and it's turning out to be less now...) called things off with OW because [and my knowledge of what he's told her comes from the fact that i'm still reading his email] he had decided that he could not move forward in their R to a public phase because of his uncertainty about his trust of her (how ironic...) and hurting the boys. There followed about a week of virtually no contact; then some 'friendly' email and then significant phone time in the past week...and then tonight he's gone there.
Man, does this hurt...I had let down my guard some over the last few weeks, and now need to recalibrate my thoughts and decide what I want/need to do tomorrow and the next day and then the next...
S18 seems to be doing well in college; we all miss him a lot. H was most affected initially in terms of really missing/being worried about S18; wouldn't surpise me if that influenced his actions at the beginning of the month to suspend activity with OW. However, we were just up there last weekend for a really nice visit for Parents' weekend and S18 seemed to be doing well, which sat well with H. I was the one the most sad at leaving him this time...not out of worry for S18, but just that I miss him...
I'll stop for now and try to get some sleep...
Oh, and just for extra fun, we just started on a pretty major renovation in our upstairs and S12 and I are 'roomies' for the next couple of months!!
