Things are going along. Not getting much packing done and I'm taking the Ds to an amusement park today. We are meeting a couple of my siblings and their kids so the Ds are very excited. I feel like it has been a crazy busy summer so we really need to take some time for fun. It seems like it has been all downhill since we went on vacation last month.
I have started buying furniture. I have the dining room taken care of and D15's bed.
I talked to my parents yesterday for the first time about me moving. My dad had some questions but kind of beat around the bush. I was dreading the conversation, but I actually made it through it without any tears. Yea me.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Not much to report here. I got the final approval on my financing yesterday. 18 more days and the house will be mine. I have stalled on the packing as I ran out of boxes and energy. I forgot to take my medication two days in a row so I was out of sorts yesterday. I'm trying not to think of my 20th anniversary which is coming up on Tuesday. However, it is in the back of my mind and as it gets closer it is bringing me down. I do have plans for that day with friends.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Don't be afraid, don't be scared, things will turn out fine. Take it slow, I didn't have to move but I think I can relate to how this change makes you feel everything is soooo real and definite. BUT, there is always the other side of the coin:it IS a new start and your new house looks amazing.
Try to forget that day. Don't think about it, just "act as if" it's another day... Love K
Thanks K. Today I took the Ds to look at furniture for the house. It was stressing me out and my acid reflux that hasn't been a problem all summer has started acting up the past few days. (Stress contibutes to it.) I told H this on the phone, don't know why, he said just make a list of what I want and he will buy it. I said no, I'll do it. I mentioned that I had done the house all alone and he said yes I did a good job with that. H asked if it was ok to stop by this evening as he wanted to get one of his bikes. I said that was fine as I had the Ds one of his nights this week.
After H left he called Ds phone. I have stopped asking what they talk about but for some reason I asked today. D said he called to tell her they could call anytime they wanted or if something was bothering them. WTF? That is crazy coming from the person that won't talk to them about anything.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Red...congratulations on the house!! I think it is wonderful!!
I once had an instructor who said if you are not STD, you are not living. (Scared to death). I am not so sure I would take it quite that far, but you are getting ready to embark on a wonderful new adventure...your own home!!! Just think, you can decorate it the way you want, paint it the way you want, leave your dirty socks on the floor if you want...haha
As for your anniversary, Hun, we are here for you, but turn it into a celebration of sorts. You are going out with your friends to have a good time, so create a new memory of that day...maybe the rebirth of you!!!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I took the Ds furniture shopping today. We have the furniture ready to go for the Ds' bedrooms, the family room and the dining room. Now I just need to get living room furniture, a couple of TVs, and some accent pieces. I did some more packing today and felt a little less stressed. Things are moving along.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
I hope you are enjoying the shopping and getting ready for your move!! This is an exciting time, so feel proud at what you have accomplished!!! (((Red)))
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Living room furniture has been found so most of the shopping is done. Just need to pick up odds and ends. I am having fun and can't wait to see how it all looks in the house. Two weeks from today:)
I am happy to say I'm not posting much about H anymore. I think I am getting closer to detaching. My life is no longer about obessing over him.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Yesterday was my 20th anniversary and it didn't suck. I didn't even think about it being my anniversary until I had been up for an hour or so. Then it was just "Oh, it's my anniversary." Ran Ds around to practices in the morning. Then I spent the afternoon with my bestfriends.(The noncyber ones) In the evening my niece and nephew came over for a sleepover with D10. Neither D mentioned the day so I don't know if they forgot or just didn't want to think about it. Big surprise, no mention from H:)
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
