I had those same feelings. An incredible icky tummy, an ache that just hurt in a different way. My heart would thunder, then I'd get this pain/ache and wonder if I was having a heart attack, panic attack or what. I wondered if I'd ever be able to sleep again. Those feelings pass.
Doing something physical, staying busy keeps the demons at bay. I would write in my journal every night before going to bed... and often have the most incredible insights. I think after he said he was dating I was concerned about the kids finding it.
This play has been a godsend. This week is insane. We'll probably be working on costumes up until about 10 minutes before the show starts.
Any time you want some love.. just look me up.
*hugshugsandmorehugs*
PS.. I love that post you shared.. thank you! What great motivation.
It's always frustrating to hear that people read your posts but don't comment. I think that happens when it sounds like you have a grip on what's going on, not having drama.
I'd been doing that and not knowing what to add. So I typed away tonight. You've really changed and grown in the amount of time I've known you. Good for you! And what fun you have.
I love that name, by the way. I just wanted to say I read your post with the dream in it about your conversation with your husband, and it WAS a good omen. (That is all that I read, so I may be offbase here, but give it a try. If I'm right and it feels right in your heart, you will know).
It means you are having foresight about your R. The people walking by and nodding are telling you that whatever you are doing is working. The fact that your H is listening and still talking means that he is considering your feelings and thoughts even as you sleep. Things are going on here in your R, and you are subconsciously aware of it, but you haven't admitted it consciously yet.
I don't know your thread. I have not read it, but that's what the dream tells me.
All I can say is that that musical is crazy! They have replicas of the original costumes and wigs used in Cats, period costumes, a bazillion incredible wigs styled for each significant character. I can't believe the change when the girl who plays the lead in Hairspray wore her wig. It is incredible how realistic it makes everything. No detail is left undone.
The people who produce this never make money, they don't charge the kids hundreds to thousands of dollars to be in this (as many other theatres do). They inspire each individual.. cast, crew, moms, dads to do more than they ever thought they could. A challenge arises, you rise beyond it. Maybe they should go on tour doing workshops so others can experience the magic they bring.
Opening night is Friday. I'll have to find something to replace this wonderful experience.
Thanks for the dream analysis. I never know what to make of them.
In the dream I was yelling.. not screaming yelling, but volumes came from my core. He only spoke about her and how he felt about her.
At this point spouse and I do not communicate. He stopped depositing his check and we're in court on the 31st to determine temporary alimony and support.
I love the idea of him listening, that a change might be happening. At the very least, feeling that I am doing the right thing is a balm to my soul.
Morning! Nice post from ms imp. I think if I had as much strength and perserverence as many here, I wouldn't be pulled in so many different directions now. Admittedly, it is a nice problem to have, though.
Gypsy - a play! Volunteering! Talk about GAL. I think that is awesome. I'll catch up in more detail later but you sound good. Keep it up!
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