I am trying to follow your lead since it looks like (hope I don't jinx it!) I am headed into piecing...
Lack of patience, lingering resentment, mistrust, they are all there. But my H is here, too, by my side in bed every night. Playing with the kids before bed. Calling from work.
I agree with you things will never be the same again. But I hold out hope that maybe somewhere down the line they will be better than before? I flip-flop often between being glad H has me on the list at all to being outraged that he hasn't put me at the top after "all I have put up with". That road is not a fun one to go down...
Glad to hear you had a good time in DR. Sorry you have caught a bug, though. Thinking of you...
BBJ, i read your recent posts but i did not post because i did not want to jinx you. last time i said things look promising, i think you had a small setback....what the haey, I am going over there.
I am fine. Had a nice weekend. Spent Friday night at home with D7 and W. Saturday I took D7 to my parents and spent the evening having supper with W's new girlfriends and their respective significant others. I actually had a good time. They seem like nice folks...a couple of the ladies are a little out there....but that may have been the wine. I spent very little post supper time with W and mingled quite a bit. W actually came by at one point and commented that we had hardly been together.....we had supper and sat next to each other.....some DBing principles ina restaurant (GAL / acting as if / giving her space etc.). We came home had a night cap followed by a very nice .... end to the day. Sunday I shot 75 afteer not touching my clubs for 2 weeks and we then went shopping for some new furniture....followed by supper with D7 at her favourite restaurant. So...a very nice weekend with a couple of mutual ILYs.
Thanks BBJ, Once in a while I tend to struggle with what happend in the last year ..... the trust thing. I just can't seem to shake it off. This AM. W asked me to look into a little weekend excursion with D7. I never thought that this would be possible 6 months ago. i guess if it happened to me it can happen to anybody who is struggling right now.
Hope you are well buddy. You sound good. Don't let your mind wander to bad places. Remember that she seems to react best to your positive outlook and steps.