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FG~ End result = rebuild r/m.....don't care about pool...bring on the dozer!!!

should i give him time to digest the text i sent regarding the pool...he always said i was a princess, everything had to be my way or no way...new history is being created, me not needing the pool. this is him testing me, seeing if I really have "changed"

he's an angry bee hive.....do i keep poking? will it look desperate? i don't like the look of desperation or at least not on me...it clashes with my eye color!!!

I want to sell my product...not myself...not a hooker today!!! LOL...but in a way that is beneficial to R/M and not annoying to H or counterproductive to end result

end result = rebuild R/M

hope i'm making sense....I know I'm your eyes and ears...I try to make this make sense....sometimes I feel like I know what I need to relay to you, but can't.

"should i give him time to digest the text i sent regarding the pool...he always said i was a princess, everything had to be my way or no way...new history is being created, me not needing the pool. this is him testing me, seeing if I really have "changed"

The princess agreed.. if we need to knock down the pool.. so be it.
Did she throw some other stuff in there.. sure. The princess did not agree.. or disagree.

"he's an angry bee hive.....do i keep poking? will it look desperate?"

Its not desperate. Trust me.. he is going to sting you. You got the Aloe and Aspirin ready?

"I want to sell my product"

I will try and help.. without all the "fluff".

"hope i'm making sense....I know I'm your eyes and ears...I try to make this make sense....sometimes I feel like I know what I need to relay to you, but can't."

Did you ever stop and think.. I agree with you? All you have to be is honest.

Really.. I hope you are picking up on all that I am "saying". I see some glimmers.. then I see you backing up. Baby steps. They will compound upon themselves. They always do.

"Really.. I hope you are picking up on all that I am "saying" "

I think for the most part I "get" what you are saying...when I don't I play 20 questions...like I said before...things have to make sense...heart...lungs...kidneys...work together one big happy family...nurse in me...yeah, you remember now.. sometimes i play a ditzy hooker in crazy high heels that asks tons of questions...I play her well! if i have questions/don't get gumpology, will ask!

ok late night...will plan random text tomorrow...something will come to mind!

We are not that far off.. just not in sync yet.

I got ya.

Ok.. it is quiet over here.. I don't like it when things get quiet.

Have a great day Christa.

FG~ my goodness, work has been CRAZY busy!!!

Need to shoot H a text, and need to think of a good one...something I haven't used yet....hhmmm???

then teen camp went great, then back to work as normal this afternoon and it was a hot mess....never stops!!

i don't like it when things are quiet either. usually i miss more things are when it is not busy....i'm more on my A game when i stay busy and focused....versus sitting at the nurses station!

how was the rest of your day?

"Trust me.. he is going to sting you. You got the Aloe and Aspirin ready"

how do you think he will sting me? Don't like being stung...one might allergic...and after last sting...don't want many more! want to proceed with caution around crazy bee hive!

When I text, if the response is "leave me alone"...where do I go from there? just wanting to prepare...

"then back to work as normal this afternoon and it was a hot mess"

You watch those shows... what did I get myself into!!

Help!!

LOL.

"how do you think he will sting me? Don't like being stung...one might allergic...and after last sting...don't want many more! want to proceed with caution around crazy bee hive!"

There is no caution around a crazy bee hive. You just have to understand.. your gonna get stung. Was it really that bad? I need a reference.. on a scale from 1 to 10.. how bad did your little exchange hurt? 1 being.. did he say something.. 10 being my heart hurts and I am going to have to go to the hospital.

"When I text, if the response is "leave me alone"...where do I go from there? just wanting to prepare..."

Rule of 3.. so far.. he has not said it. The first time he says it I want you to say.. I thought we were talking about the pool.

"FG~ my goodness, work has been CRAZY busy!!!"

I hear you on that one..

I am going to bed.. so I can get 6-7ish hours of sleep.

I will see you in the morning.

Sleep well.. Dream Well.

fg...I don't watch any shows except crime drama(law and order,without a trace, burn notice etc) and an occasional movie if it looks like it will be a good one! I hear hot mess from the nursing students i teach part time...they are crazy...and have me talking like them...LOL!!!

ok.....on hurt scale i was a 5 that night...now i'm just PO'd...because my best-friend (who's H is my H's BF) told me my H bought a new suburban(new to him, but used vehicle) no money for pool (money for toys) or at least that was his "story"...don't know if it still is...no word from him yet...and when i heard he has money for toys and playing...it was a little frustrating and making my resentment level rise...therefore on a PO'd scale i'm a 6ish...

i know, no emotion, hard....very hard....just need to vent, frustrated

ok, so back to R/M saving....which is my goal, regardless, of his frivolous habits during this time.

note to self...let go of emotion...

need to text tomorrow...only thing to fear is fear itself

good night FG, hope you sleep well, dream well, and have a good day at work!

I'm looking forward to a 3day weekend!! yeah!!

christa