Amusingly enough, H is talking to one of our friends. He failed a bunch of classes and got kicked out of school. He's also losing his job because it's a student position and he can't stay now that he is no longer a student. He's trying to find another job so he can pay rent, since apparently his deployment isn't happening in August, but rather in November or December.
Is he ever gonna hit bottom???????
That makes a lot of sense. I was thinking he had a lot of other stuff going on. As for rock bottom, who knows? I'm wondering the same thing with my W.
Me: 30 W: 28 T 8, M 6 S: 7-27-2007 W filed (again) 3-2011 Served 8-2011 Responded, now dark "I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear" MLK
Some days I think I do, other days I'm not as sure. I definitely see what I have missed the last two years, the things I would need in another long-term R. I am not so sure I know what H feels was missing as we have yet to really talk that out, and what I have gleaned sometimes seems to change from week to week. This causes me great frustration.
But, it's not my problem anymore.
Tomorrow is another day.
And right now, my plans for tomorrow do not include my STBXH.
Jon, well, I guess time will tell won't it? Unfortunately for my STBXH, he may need more time than I can give him.
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Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
Well, MIL moved our lunch from today to tomorrow because of a meeting that came up. Which actually worked out fine, cuz I got to walk up to the library and get my books, plus hit the farmer's market. So I'm having fruit for lunch.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
Sometimes rock bottom is a really long way down. Its so good for you to have another focus right now that is not related to H. I think its good for him as well. He will soon realize that you are not waiting for him to grace you with his presence and that may come as a shock to him. Its a good experience for him to have these things happening in his life and no you around to pin it on.
Your whole demeanor has changed with your association with Hot Guy and your PMA is through the roof. I'm happy for you and it is good for you to get "a break" from this crap for awhile. It sounds like you also are doing some thinking about what it is that will make you happy and what you need. Good for you. Corey
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
Yeah, I am not waiting for him. And if he doesn't get his a$$ in gear like two weeks ago lol, there won't be anything left to work on IMO.
Hot Guy has definitely been a great ego boost. And he's a ton of fun so far. I am sooo enjoying that. And this month off from school is totally awesome as well.
My roommate apparently went home from work sick. I think I am gonna go straight home instead of working out. I hope she feels better soon.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
So....someone apparently sent an e-mail to the readiness NCO at my company which says it has a topless picture of me attached. He e-mailed me to get my opinion on the e-mail from a "tim" (not my H's name, but he's the only one that would have a photo like that), but hasn't opened it yet.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
I went back through my spam box and found e-mails from this person saying they had found a photo of me on the internet, then another message saying talk to them about it, then another threatening to send it to my unit if I didn't talk to this guy.
This really pisses me off.
While, if they figure out who sent it, that person would be in trouble, it does pose a bit of an issue for me because of my security clearance. Theoretically, I think the military would be worried about it because of a possibility for blackmail. Which is of course ridiculous, because what pisses me off about the whole thing is not that the picture exists, but that this person is threatening me over it. (Of course, I've also been told I have an underdeveloped sense of modestly)
And my readiness NCO just e-mailed me to tell me they are...from the description I know where they were taken too. With H of course. I think he and I need to have a talk.
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Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
Yeah, the security clearance thing is always a challenge, isn't it. Though, I guess if it's already "out there" it wouldn't seem that blackmail was really a big possibility. But, with the clearance folks, you never know.
Do you send the emails that you dug up to your unit so they can try to figure out who is doing it?
Clearly, your H passed the photo on to someone. Or is even behind this. I mean, how likely is it that someone would happen to see it on the internet, recognize you, and know just how to send it to your unit? Seems kinda far fetched to me.
