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I don't think I could make big changes like g can. Part of that is because of the kids. Personally I would love to scoop them up and move to TN but that can't happen with them having to see H. I would love to go other places too but that just can't happen.

Right now, I am just allowing myself a movie now and then, book club once a month and trying to convince myself to make some changes here and there in the house. I know that it may not appear this way on here, but I am pretty shy. I have a hard time making myself go out and meet people.

I met H at a restaurant that I worked at and all of his friends seemed to work there. He would come by to meet up with them. We became friends that way and then fell in love and the rest is history. I know I'm not going out to meet someone new per se but I am not going to meet anyone until I force myself to get out there. Babysteps, babysteps...

kat

Hi Kat --

I get what you are saying here:For me, kids have made all the difference. It's really why I've hung in here for so long; I've wanted to be able to look in the mirror and honestly tell myself that I did everything in my power to keep our family together...

Kat, can you say where in KS you live...

L2

I'm in the wonderful capital, Topeka. It's my hometown anyways and for that it will always be special.

I think I might look into a writing or photography class or club, maybe just to get my feet wet.

kat

That sounds like a lot of fun. I too, am very shy. If and when roomie leaves, going to have to make myself get out during the times the kids aren't going to be with me.

And I think the always eloquent lodo really said what I was trying to say to you.

Kat, how ya doin? (I think I'm channeling Joey from Friends for some weird reason today)! There was a great quote I loved in Kung Fu Panda (have you taken your kids to see that yet)? The Kung Fu Master says: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present. I love that!!!! Karen

H took them and they seemed to have enjoyed it. I'll wait for the $1.50 or video most likely.
Sometimes I don't like todays' gift, do you think I could exchange it? lol

kat

Am I the poster child for radical change? Change you can believe in? Spare change?

It does make it easier that I won't be uprooting children. XW already took care of that. So not just D'd but truly single. I make a lousy single guy, though. It will take some getting used to. Even though I have been living alone for a few months now, I still consider myself to be married (and therefore not completely alone). Still wear the ring, too. Weird huh?

The present is a gift. I like it.

You are just making these big drastic changes and not that there is anything wrong with that because you have a wonderful reason for doing so. I just have to be coaxed along abit. 21 years is a long time and old habits are hard to break.

I still think of myself as married. I still think of him as H and I am sure I will have to catch myself later if I talk about him at all.

I don't know how I will be as a single person, it has been such a long time and really my life will be pretty full with the kids and their friends and their busy lives. I just need to make time for me in there. Sad to think I may look forward to his weekends as a much needed break. I try to convince myself of that now, but it never turns out that way.

Star Wars 3 is on tonight, but I am sure you already knew.

kat

It's not sad. Everyone needs time for themselves. Especially when so much energy goes into taking care of others. Even if you love them.

Was Kung Fu Panda good? I say that I like to watch the kid movies to keep up to date with what my students like, but honestly I like them myself! H and I used to go to kid movies every summer when the big ones came out. One of our 1st dates was to see Shrek. But time for me to movie on and not dwell on all of that. Should I go see it or wait until it is out on DVD?
I still haven't seen Cars. If I had a working TV, I would rent it.