I couldn't believe how that 'crumpling' feeling kicked in. My own anxiety wove its own drama within my head. It's okay for folks to get upset with me; I won't fall over and die (though that is the underlying message going through my head).
I think of how things have changed for you in leaps and bounds. It's amazing what happens when people congregate to help each other.
Thanks again!
*hugs*
Gypsy....
Oh shucks...
I felt you hurting and I won't stand for that. Honesty from the heart is something you taught me. One is lucky to see a falling star and make a wish before it vanishes. I on the other hand had two 'rising stars' come into my life and give me not only opinions and advice, but a deeper insight to a unspoken travisty.
I never took my W's childhood for granted, but felt helpless to aide her and took her outlashings personally. The warmth and understanding I received was of epic knowledge.
You made a choice to open up to me and share your most darkest secrets with me, with no regard IMO to yourself and what it might unleash inside of yourself. That my friend is the truest form of unconditional love, so when I say I love you it is meant with the deepest sense of friendship.
You are a beautiful person who deserves better. Love yourself and embrace all that you have to give. It humbles me to call you friend, I will always be there for you. What I said earlier pales in what you have given me no matter how it turns out.
Your H does not see what I and others see, it will be his lose not yours, you truly are a beautiful butterfly.
I knew what I wanted, needed. I was open about it and communicated my concerns. I didn't worry about being rejected, found lacking.. anything.
It was a great feeling to address an issue and feel comfortable about it.
I'm carrying this new found awareness with me as I move forward.
Neat.
*hugs*
I think it's totally AWESOME that you are at this point in your self awareness........I just reached it myself a few days/weeks ago. We have so much in common, it just blows me away.
Did you always feel like a kid "playing grown up" ? I did.
Maybe we are twins separated at birth ?
hugs
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
I felt myself regressing to the cower in the cobwebs persona because I was afraid someone got angry at me.. maybe even a few people did. Guess what.. I faced it, posted about it.. dealt with it. That felt positive.
Hey, I had no idea. really. I'm a DAM remember??
From now on if you think this, just ask.
If only I had known this was bothering you. It would have been taken care of.
Keep on posting to me. I'm watching so many it's hard to keep up.
paying back the visit, always amazed by what I read here. You see, there are hundreds of people on this board going through similar phases, it seems you can write for all of us... Love K
I had "that" moment a few months back. It was liberating...
It seems like I learn something and walk, holding it in my hand. Sometimes the awareness is like sand and slips through, having to be something to pick up again and again. You can see the analogy continuing with pebbles, goop.. anything.
My goal is to have a 'handprint on my heart' for good. (from Wicked, the Broadway musical).
ELPHABA I'm limited: Just look at me - I'm limited And just look at you - You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda So now it's up to you (spoken) For both of us (sung) Now it's up to you:
GLINDA I've heard it said That people come into our lives for a reason Bringing something we must learn And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return Well, I don't know if I believe that's true But I know I'm who I am today Because I knew you:
Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed for good
ELPHABA It well may be That we will never meet again In this lifetime So let me say before we part So much of me Is made of what I learned from you You'll be with me Like a handprint on my heart And now whatever way our stories end I know you have re-written mine By being my friend: Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea Like a seed dropped by a skybird In a distant wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you:
GLINDA Because I knew you:
BOTHI have been changed for good
ELPHABA And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness For the things I've done you blame me for
GLINDA But then, I guess we know There's blame to share
BOTH And none of it seems to matter anymore
GLINDA ELPHABA Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown From orbit as it Off it's mooring Passes a sun, like By a wind off the A stream that meets Sea, like a seed A boulder, half-way Dropped by a Through the wood Bird in the wood
BOTH Who can say if I've been changed for the better? I do believe I have been changed for the better?
GLINDA And because I knew you: ELPHABA Because I knew you:
BOTH Because I knew you: I have been changed for good.
