I know it may not feel like it, but you are moving forward. You are becoming unstuck. Although there have been many rough moments you blatantly are becoming stronger through all of this.. so try to remind yourself that it will get better.
Thank you so much for the reminders. It's easy to forget the journey when the eyes are set on the (first or consolation) prize.
It gets better as I get stronger and stay in the now. Accept what is and keep building on what's under the surface..
Nice to meet you! Thanks for your comments here and in Newcomers. We were together 26 years, married 25.. it all seems like a dream now.
I have to step out of my confusion.. one lil bit at a time.
As I was leaving the lunch, a few of the ladies called me over. I gave them quick hugs because I was with my daughter and expressed happiness in seeing them, promising to catch up later. One asked me, "How's this summer going?" My reply, "It's very interesting." They murmured as I left agreeing that was a perfect reply. They all 'know' what's going on.
If you ever have a chance, see "Avenue Q"... it is simply hilarious. You laugh like crazy the entire first act.
Hope you get the courage and strength needed to travel this meaningless lonely road.
When I read in books about recovering from this event, it sounds like those left behind get the short end of the stick (if the relationship fails).
I have to hope this is not meaningless. I know this has been a huge wake up call for me, a period of renewal and growth, frustrating because I am still stuck.
The unknown when thought of as a whole is so scary. But learning to take it one bite at a time makes it a simpler process. Living in the moment, focusing on what I can do in the here and now seems to be the key.
The whole 'hope' thing is hardest. I must not have it right. Maybe letting go of what I had to gain what is best is the way to go. The good surfaces, the muck sinks.
Thank you for your perspective. The answers can never be found because so many adjustment and rationalizations skew them. After the past four months, I no longer know what is or isn't. It's all been scrambled by emotion.
When I do talk to meaningful friends, I know the depth of love I feel/felt for him, just abhor the guy he is now. Instead of getting so furious about the excuses he gives to the kids, I realize I allowed those excuses in our marriage. Silly.
I'll just do work in the present. What will happen, will.
started to experiment a little and would STOP being very careful not to "feel" things. I hope you "get me".
Forgot the freaking STOP. Maybe it makes sense now? I was thinking in the beginnning I was either OUT of control, emotionally, or "dead". Then little by little the difference between the two got smaller.
God I am tired, I hope it makes sense HUGS back to you K
