Like a film love story there, welled up here I am my man and I'm at work you BxsTxxD...People will think I'm a weirdo or something !!! (I mean people other than my W !!!)
Man that really hits me. Why cant all our stories turn out like this? Keep doing what you are doing and dont be so down on your self, or maybe you need to be for results like this. Happy belated b-day btw (you need to change your signature too, says 44).
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M-31 W-28 S7 D2.5 T 8, M 4 W filed 2-14-08 D on hold 3/08 D off hold 5/08 D to be final on/by Nov 08 Anniv 9-4 looked hopeful
I am relatively new to your sitch but have read it over the last couple of days. Sounds like things are goind very well for you! Keep your cool head and you will do fine! Glad your birthday turned out well.
PS: I love your forum name and the titles of your threads!
PS: Looks like you need to update your profile for your b-day as well ......lol
TwinDad Me 39, W 36, M 11 W - MLC, WAW???? 2 Kids B/G 3 YRS Old Start of the Long and Bumpy Road..... On the verge of piecing.....a new beginning
Wow congratulations Brian, I am glad things went very good for you!!! You sound like you got your head in the right place, stick to your gameplan and things wilgdvibes about you bro keep it up!!
BTW do you think you could get me some tickets to the Cornhuskers....like maybe season tickets It is almost that time of year again!
Stay strong Brian and stay the path you are doing well I am proud of you. Heck this story even brought a tear to my eye!
You guys are all great, it was an awesome night as I said I had my old W for an 1 1/2 it was comfortable.
Too comfortable for W I guess, it didn't take but 24 hrs for it to change as I/we all knew it would, the turtle crawled back into her shell. LOL! Good thing I had no expectations or I would be REALLY disappointed right now. W was texting earlier this evening and then came the digs. I told her the shirts she had bought didn't fit. She says well you have lost too much weight. I said I have lost some. She says I could tell when I hugged you. I said I have only lost 15 lbs. She says well so the shirts are to big and I liked them. Im like WTF why are you slammin me, her reply was I still know how to get to you!! I said no the shirts are too SMALL, I need XXL not XL, I said I have may lost weight, but I have but my muscle mass back on. Well it's my fault you lost the weight, it's ALL my fault. GEEZ will it EVER end? Ironically her cell phone went dead and POOF she is dark again.
Wallow in your own self pity, life is too short. Too have something within your crasp and you can't reach it because of the indecision. I'm not getting on the coaster screw it, if she wants me she knows where to look if Im there so be it I/we don't deserve this, there are plenty of other women out there that would love to call me boyfriend/husband. Don't misunderstand not angry just hurt, going dark it's safer on my heart.
So let the 2x4's commence at this point it would be feeling something real!!!
Tomorrow is another day, fresh start, you dont know what it holds. Yep, Im not where you at but I am, and the anger is like non-existent, not worth it anymore. But the hurt really sucks, comes and goes so often, and really cant do squat about it.
Suppose to get hammered with more rain tonight as we did earlier. Changed the forecast at the last minute. 3rd week in a row local track will be rained out.
my stories
M-31 W-28 S7 D2.5 T 8, M 4 W filed 2-14-08 D on hold 3/08 D off hold 5/08 D to be final on/by Nov 08 Anniv 9-4 looked hopeful
No 2x4... just rest your head on my shoulder..and let me pat you on the back... *pat pat pat*... are you feeling better? *pat pat pat.. waiting for the burp*
Feeling the emotion and venting is a beautiful thing. Sitting back to figure out what caused it is even better. Stepping off the rollercoaster for perspective is helpful. Centering yourself on where you are, what your priorities are.. and just smiling because you are just so.. (dang.. you can't call men, cute.. can you?) manly.. virile.. great.. all helps.
Sometimes the smallest things cause the silliest discussions.
No 2x4... just rest your head on my shoulder..and let me pat you on the back... *pat pat pat*... are you feeling better? *pat pat pat.. waiting for the burp*
Feeling the emotion and venting is a beautiful thing. Sitting back to figure out what caused it is even better. Stepping off the rollercoaster for perspective is helpful. Centering yourself on where you are, what your priorities are.. and just smiling because you are just so.. (dang.. you can't call men, cute.. can you?) manly.. virile.. great.. all helps.
Sometimes the smallest things cause the silliest discussions.
*hugs*
Oh Sweet Gypsy, I am sitting here chuckling to myself you are so eliquent. Your use of words can really get one to ponder. Are you sure you and Forrest aren't brother and sister? LOL! You are so genuine and real, I love that about you!!
So W just calls me (wow cell works now), says she was talking to D11 about last night asking her if it bothered her & how she felt with us at dinner. D11 says it was a bit awkward in the beginning but it was fine after that. W says well I just want to make sure you weren't confused. I said I had asked D11 if it was okay that I invited you and she said yes it was alright. So W says again just don't want her confused, I said don't worry I didn't read anything into it and I know it won't change anything, it was just nice to be all together for a nice meal and a b-day. I figured she was looking for me to say that to ease her mind of not being able to commit, just so there was no guilt on her part ya know.
I am still going darker than the ace of spades, I am really not going to play the game much longer, I know it has been said I haven't been here that long on the BB, but I have been dealing with this since last August and a person can only take so much hurt and loneliness...I am getting to a good spot with myself and am really liking it and if she doesn't want what I have to offer it's her loss, my kids don't need to live in limbo nor do I and for that matter neither does dear W.
.....She says peoeple are watching, I said let them she says I am getting light headed (SC is this the way to start 'bending')I thank her again for the shirts and we leave.
I text her about 10:30 and thank her for making it a wonderful day and she says she had a nice time also. Told her to sleep well and goodnight. She says night to me.
So D17 calls and wishes me a happy b-day and apologizes for having to work & miss dinner, I say not your fault and we missed you at dinner. D17 proceeds to tell me that W had talked to her about it already & that W told her it was a very nice time and it just felt right & good/normal....Needless to say that was something to ponder as I went to bed....
I know not to read into any of this, will stand back abit & observe I expect her to pull back some that was ALOT in 1 evening for a WAS; but at least for 1 1/2 hrs I had my true W back
Thank you all for making me go to the next level to try something different in asking her to go. If I never get her back totally I will always have my 45th b-day to remember.
I have no idea what direction this is going, but for once the rollercoaster ride was worth the price of admission.
Brian
Brian that is so AWESOME !!! I'm sooooooo happy for you. Keep doing what you're doing, it's working. Happy Birthday ! I wish you many more even better than this one.
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M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
It is almost that time of year again!