Are you going to see it tomorrow night? I can't wait!!! I won't be able to go til sometime next week......
Journaling:
Looking at a ranch house on our street and talking with the woman who wants to sell it. Its very cute, nicely done (needs new carpet, but that's cool cuz I can pick the color!), would be the perfect size and hopefully perfect price for me.
H is on board with any help I will need for this possible move. Wants to go see the house with me, will start to get our house ready to sell, etc. We had a small talk about him feeling welcome in some place just I own, because he will still need to be there a lot to take care of the girls while I work. He waffled a bit, then said he would try.
He has a place in his heart for me. He doesn't want me to suffer, to be broke, or to even be hurt. He just doesn't want me, as a wife. I am feeling a tad overwhelmed with the thought of the summer months (possibly selling/buying houses, divorce, and seeing the kids hurt), but I can do this. It won't knock me down, for too long, that is. I will be ok. I pray my girls will be as well.
Im glad he is being decent to you right now. and im hoping it remains like that.
I know you are feeling overwhelmed, but you WILL be ok, this IS alot for someone to go through, but you have your girls and this will be so much better for your sanity.
great on the house!! I hope it works for you!!
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Yeah, my friend has to go out of town with her boss tomorrow tonight so I'm "kidnapping" my best gal pal who hasn't seen even one episode to go with me! What a trooper but really where has she been? It's on TBS for crying out loud. I promise I won't say anything except if I liked it or not. kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
You will be better than OK, and as long as you're OK, your girls will be better than OK. Having a strong mother like you will do them so much good now and in the future. I wish things were different for you and your family, but sometimes life throws you a curveball. It's how you adjust that matters most.
I hope the house you love works out for you.
xo
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence
I just read through your post and I have to say that you are handeling everything with dignity and grace. You truely are inspirational. Thank you for posting to my thread.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
Wow, it must be hard to do everything with him but be his W. But the fact that he wants everything else -- that's huge. I really hope he comes around for you. I wish I had your patience and perseverance.
Me45 W35 M6 T8 D16 SD11 D0 Dec 07: Bomb July 08: Busted! Thread