Jeff your prayer made me cry. But then just about everything makes me cry these days
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
If you ever decide to end your affair, I will be here to forgive you.
------I would take out "ever" and change "will be here to" to "can".
You know this is tearing me up inside, I cannot make you stop what you are doing. I can only pray that you will.
------She may see this as guilting her and may get mad, or she may just think "he has no clue"...either way, it probably won't affect her the way you want it to.
You remain in my prayers. For our last night together under this roof as a family come up to bed and let me hold you one more time before you leave.
------I don't disagree with this. But, like Karen pointed out, be prepared for her to say no.
Thank you all I am sad and scared, and tired, and lonley and hopeful and wondering, and thankful and loved, and hurting, and so so much more.
Card is getting more and more to the point, yes I am prepared for a no.
Mary, I hope you know that this is not what I wanted. I hope that my actions have shown you how much I love you. If you decide to end your affair, I can forgive you. I just pray it happens before what's left of my love for you runs out.
You know this is tearing me up inside and you know no matter what happens, you will remain in my prayers.
For our last night together under this roof as a family come to bed and let me hold you one more time before you leave. If you don't I will understand.
Your Husband Jeff
Thank you all for everything, I never thought I would be in this situation becasue I was always willing to go the extra mile for my W and family. I tried so hard, I must continue the fight.
We all have a long haul ahead of us good or bad it's the path we choose thats important.
M45 W41 M10 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me PA confirmed 03/08 no sex yet ?? let me hope !!! Moving Van coming Saturday May 31st
Jeff, as I see the day coming closer, I can feel your pain, man. It's so easy for me to tell myself, "I wish she would just leave, figure it out, and leave me and the kids alone", I am scared to death that she is going to do it.
But remember, her moving out does not mean it is over. It is never over. Even if D happens. Just this year, I had the priviledge to help a new coworker that was going through D. He was the WAS. His W did not want to D, but she bluffed him and he called her on it. Papers were signed and filed by her. After many talks, he ended up reconciling with W and they even started attending my church! I played a part in that.
I have seen it happen. WW knows it. God knows it.
You will continue the fight, bro.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
God must have read my letter, W came home from work last night and climbed in bed with me. Thank you your obedient servant Jeff from St Louis.
W is still moving out Saturday - she is going and I have to get use to it. I'm still planning on leaving out a card for her to read when she gets home from work tonight and I plan on writing the following:
Mary, I hope you know that this is not what I wanted. I hope that my actions have shown you how much I love you.
If you decide to end your affair, I can forgive you. I just pray it happens before what's left of my love for you runs out.
You know this is tearing me up inside and you know no matter what happens, you will remain in my prayers.
Come to bed and let me hold you one more time before you leave. If you don't want to I will understand.
Your Husband Jeff
W is really moving out, everything is in place, I don't think anything will stop her at this point. its going to be hard on me. W called me this morning at work, we are both music lovers and we were discussing a song, we have a shared ituns account and we have over 4,000 songs in our collection, somthing like 5 days of music. We talked for almost a 1/2 hour. Feels like there is nothing going on between us, like she isn't moving out, but I know she is. Any objections to the card let me know
We all have a long haul ahead of us good or bad it's the path we choose thats important.
M45 W41 M10 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me PA confirmed 03/08 no sex yet ?? let me hope !!! Moving Van coming Saturday May 31st
Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life Lyrics Artist: Monty Python Some things in life are bad, They can really make you mad. Other things just make you swear and curse. When you're chewing on life's gristle, Don't grumble, give a wistle! And this'll help things turn out for the best... And......always look on the bright side of life! (whistle)
Always look on the bright side of life... If life seems jolly rotten, There's something you've forgotten! And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing,
When you're feeling in the dumps, Don't be silly chumps, Just purse your lips and whistle -- that's the thing! And... always look on the bright side of life... (whistle)
Come on!
Always look on the bright side of life...(whistle)
For life is quite absurd, And death's the final word. You must always face the curtain with a bow! Forget about your sin -- give the audience a grin, Enjoy it -- it's the last chance anyhow!
So always look on the bright side of death! Just before you draw your terminal breath. Life's a piece of sh_t, When you look at it.
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true, You'll see it's all a show, Keep 'em laughing as you go. Just remember that the last laugh is on you!
And always look on the bright side of life (whistle) Always look on the bright side of life (whistle)
We all have a long haul ahead of us good or bad it's the path we choose thats important.
M45 W41 M10 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me PA confirmed 03/08 no sex yet ?? let me hope !!! Moving Van coming Saturday May 31st
I am sad and scared, and tired, and lonley and hopeful and wondering, and thankful and loved, and hurting, and so so much more.