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Thanks K, I am almost through the 5 pages of yours that I missed!

I am 90% sure we are getting the house. The guy accepted my offer and they are faxing me the paperwork this afternoon.

Texted H at 10:30 "He agreed to pay the home warranty so the house is ours!" I debated on the "ours", but he is the one signing off on the loan and calling us joint tenants so I just did it......

He called at 11 and left me a message to call him back. I assume it is about the offer....

Well, H was calling me to get information re. financing. He never handles the money, he just spends it (and earns it, to be fair)
He needed to know how much we owed on the house, how long I had been at my job, how much I was going to make next year.

I was a little surprised that he remembered my salary, I only told it to him once. But he had just faxed the paperwork when I called and he had estimated everything almost right on the money.

As per my doctor appointment, she did find a cyst. So now I have to go tomorrow for an ultrasound and a mammogram. They also did blood work today. And next week I have to meet with a surgeon ( ) in case they have to aspirate, which is just a nice way of saying biopsy I believe.

Thanks for the support guys! H sounded grumpy when I called to tell him about my dr. I actually think he does that because he is worried and doesn't want to be....

No, aspirate is different. The mammogram will most likely find nothing as you're young and your breast tissue is dense. The ultrasound will help determine what the lump is made of. If it's a symmetrical, fluid filled cyst then they will remove the fluid. AKA, aspirate. A biopsy will be done with a surgeon under general anesthesia. I have had a breast biopsy done before and have fibroids galore. (And a HUGE breast cancer risk.)

It's scary, but it most likely means nothing. Just educate yourself and be your own advocate.

I am glad the house thing worked out for you.. One day, I am going to sit down and read your "stitch". God knows when that will happen.

I will look forward to good results on the other stuff.

Thanks CW. I was hoping a knowledgeable person would come around! Not that the rest of you aren't, I just meant on this topic....

FG, you posted to me a few threads back. A few 2 x 4s back then, but I am growing so I hope they are coming fewer and farther between!

I have followed a lot of your posts as I am on with Kalni and Woog every day. I am so glad you are in a better place than you were when you first got on here. I am too, but I am not back with H yet which was of course, and still is, the ultimate goal. Along the way I just happened to fine ME again, and I like ME.

"I am so glad you are in a better place than you were when you first got on here."

Thank You. They (DB.com) tell us to look for Baby steps. I just saw one right there.

I appreciate that.

I just like you have had to walk thru some poop. My poop may have had a different consistency but we both still stepped in it. We both had to go clean it off.. the same way.

"Along the way I just happened to fine ME again, and I like ME."

I was trying to use my 2x4 to uncover it. I am glad you found it. I like "ME" to. I am Awesome!

Good luck at the doctors. A needle aspiration is very simple.

There is also a needle aspiration biopsy, which isn't done under general anesthesia, but does differ from an aspiration, which just removes the fluid. I'm very hesitant with needle biopsies and that's why I didn't think of it earlier. My sister had a needle biopsy done, had 13 pulls taken from her lump and they all came back negative. The doctor she works for recommended that, regardless of what the outcome of these were, she have a surgical biopsy done. They found the cancer in one tiny part of the lump. Had she not had the surgical biopsy done then she just would have come back in 6 months for a review. Who knows what would have happened.

I made my doctor do a surgical biopsy with a lump a few years ago. She understood. It was fine. With the lump I found last fall she had me do a breast MRI. It didn't show anything "suspicious" (key word IMO for worrisome) but there were some irregularities and I have a follow up MRI scheduled.

When I mean be your own advocate, I mean it. Read up on what could be happening and don't just follow their advice because they are the professionals. I'm not going to bore you with the details, but I've had to push for the correct care for my situation. It varies and make sure their recommendations do too.

Hey BBj,

GOOD MORNING!!!

I hope all goes well with the doctors... And he was grumpy because he is worried. Most men are like that (at least my MSTBX is like that).

I am happy for the house Bbj. When can I come visit? I'll sleep in the basement...

K

Thanks again CW. I'll let you know what I find out today...

Kalni,I have a guest room in the basement ready for you. Just let me know what color to paint the walls. They are actually the color of a sandy beach at the moment (regular, tan-ish sand, not white or black)

I wanted to post last night it seemed like I had a lot to say but I fell asleep and can't remember it all....

*Talked to H last night. He called and talked to S, then S hung up. I got on to call back so D could talk, and H hadn't hung up yet so he was still there. He asked how I was doing, I had a moment of weakness/honesty (?) and said, "I am scared."
H said
--About buying the house?
I said No!
--About Nathan? (I assume that means HE is thinking about how S is handling the separation)
I said No!
--What then?

I said, I don't know, maybe the mammogram, the ultrasound, the surgeon.....

H jumped in with an upbeat voice and said, "Oh, I'm not worried about that because I know you will be just fine! I am sure it's nothing and you will be okay."

I got a little choked up and said I just didn't want anything to happen to me when the kids are this small (I know, I worry too much!). He said,

"Honey! You are going to be okay! I know it!" and he actually laughed so I laughed through my tears. It has been a long time since that happened. Can't remember the whole conversation but he was being the H I remember. It felt like we were US again, just for those few minutes...he hasn't called me any special names for months.

We also talked a little about the house--I think H changed the subject so I wouldn't be so worried. I mentioned not wanting to buy new construction again (if this house falls through) as we did that once and the house was a bunch of problems.

H said, "I would only have a new house if I was building it or supervising it."

I said, "Yeah you always said you would be the master contractor if we built. That way you could keep an eye on things."

He said, "Yeah, and you would be there every day to check on the progress". I didn't know if he meant ME, or just you as a general word. So I said,to try and find out, "Yeah, you or me could check on things each day to make sure they aren't messing things up." He agreed...

Hmm....

H just called as I was posting above. He asked how I was doing. I kind of avoided by saying I was cleaning the house before the realtor came. He said how are you feeling? I said it hurt just a little but I was okay. He then asked me if I wanted him to come down today (3 hr drive) so he could go to the doctor with me?!?

I said, no, you don't need to come today. If I find something out today that doesn't sound real great, I would like you to come to the surgeon appointment with me. He said he would. Then he IMMEDIATELY said he had to go to a meeting and got off the phone.