Me 42-Him 40 T20yrs Married 16yrs 2/06 H- "not sure if i want to be married anymore" 6/07 H-"I'm not happy" 9/07 Admits affair & OW 12/08 I moved out 12/09 still waiting for divorce
I'm ok, doing a lot of soul searching the past few days. Putting things in place in my heart, letting go of lots of things.
I went thru my phone and deleted all texts from, h, like i'm going out, don't wait for me, etc why i was hanging on to them i don't know. Its time to let them go. So that is done.
I did something so stupid this am , h left his phone out in the open on the table, and of course it got the better of me and i read text messages from her to him, and vice versa. They were on the grounds of i loved making love to you, i want you in my life forever, my kids love you so much, i yada, yada, yada.....ugh!
I swear the next time i get the urge to look at his phone i have to not once not twice but kick myself in the butt three times. Kinda has me feeling a little blue today. But i am not letting it get to me.
I was talking to someone on friday, a new friend, he did not make the connection of who i was to who h is. Anyway long story short, he says oh yea, when i spoke to him back in november he said he was separated, divorcing his wife to be with another woman. So how is that for a punch in the stomach.
Again not going to let it get me down. I just finished planting some plants, got my new zero gravity chair, a nice big bottle of water the sunday paper and my ipod, I am gonna love life.
The handwriting is on the wall, i see it, I know the grip i must come to with it, but it is happening and i cannot stop this. He claims to love her. they want to be a big happy family. My pain needs to end,
I have a deadline set for myself for when i am going to call a lawyer, its will definately be before then.
enjoy the weather everyone hugs bear
Me 42-Him 40 T20yrs Married 16yrs 2/06 H- "not sure if i want to be married anymore" 6/07 H-"I'm not happy" 9/07 Admits affair & OW 12/08 I moved out 12/09 still waiting for divorce
I do believe I did! I mean, you must admit that was not db'ing advice and I am trying to behave but that post just set me off!
C'mon now....he's a moron and bear is taking it on the chin like a champ.
I, for one, would personally like to kick his asss and the husband stealing whores asss. She knows what she is doing!!
Me, being me, would have forwarded those texts to myself, better yet...I would have taken his phone and swore I didn't see it , but bear is doing a much better job than I.
And now for the end of my rant about bears husband...
I hope he gets the screwing of his lifetime!! Let him text that making love session to the (cough cough) other woman. I'm so sure she'll love that and I hope it brings her to the Big O!
Ha!
But uhm, since you did not delete it
Its all good.
Bye
and hugs!
Jeanette
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