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just found your new thread. how does a thread become locked? sorry to hear about recent events but at least your pissed. that seems to make it easier for me. just looking at a liar and cheat really got me. w seems to be coming aroung slowly. for how long, i dont know. just stay pissed but dont act it.

I don't know how they become locked - number of posts or length - but I have locked three of four.

Yea, staying pissed right now is going to be easy. I will be lovingly distant at home, but I feel like many others - as long as W keeps contacting OM, we have no hope. I just think it is funny that she wants this new life, but wants to keep everything BUT me...

Just went to my golf lesson, so that was good. Now just hanging out soon to run some errands.

CBK

Ah! Thank god for Golf!!!!
I plan to play the best golf of my life this summer....something good has to come of all of this.

LOL - I took it back up John - even with a horrible back, I take out a lot of frustrations on that little ball. I was such a mess yesterday though, I hit about 30 balls, gave my bucket to kid and went home and then got into an argument with W... whoops.

CBK

Okay, my daily feel like garbage, getting all pissy sitting around waiting for mom and dad to get here. Tears welling up in my eyes, not even sure what brought this on. I almost told D20 to talk sense into mom, I didn't, but dang is it tempting. She seems so far sometimes, but so close other times. What is going on... I have been doing really well today, was actually playing WII - I HATE this emotional roller coaster - somebody hit the stop button.

W will work late tonight so she doesn't have to go into her school for the weekend since my parents are here. So I have been doing the chores around the house - being super husband - I don't want her to have to worry about house stuff, especially this weekend. I am wishing harm on this OM - I thought about telling W a lie and say somebody just called from her school to tell me that she is having an A... Don't know what that would accomplish, probably nothing. Idle minds think of horrible things. At least I haven't snooped.

Not feeling good right now, need to go walk around or something. WHY did she have to have an A??? Is this a deal breaker for me? I don't think so, but I want her to come back to R on her own. How can this happen?

Somebody throw me the magic wand, I want to use it, or the genie in the bottle, that would be good.

Okay, it is my once a day feel sorry for myself I guess.

Just had to vent,

CBK

CBK, boy you are going through a ringer. Thanks for helping me. You do sound good today.

Remember, day by day. Your mind is jacking with you. Forget all the crap and just be yourself. Your a fixer and a talker. Just like me. Gotta throw it out the window. You know my sitch. It is hard.

Good to see others helping you.

Blessings to you and have a good weekend. Heading to Laredo this weekend. D11 asked me if I was going along and I told her that I wasn't sure. She wanted me to go so she called WW and told her that I was asking if I could go. I told her, "Don't say that! Your gonna get me in trouble." Too funny. Gonna have to 'splain to WW what I actually said. She had already told D11 of course I can go if I wanted to. LOL.

And as soon as I post how good you sound, your down again. Be strong. As a friend tells me sometimes, "Time to man up, dude!" I think about that and then pick myself up.

H4H - have a great time in Laredo - I am feeling totally lost right now, don't know why this keeps happening, can barely breathe right now - what a great sense of loss right now. I have been doing well, had the WTF attitude until 10 minutes ago. Why does this keep happening - such a loss right now... uncontrollable.

You are right, I am a fixer and talker - and I can't detach enough to realize this. I want to sweep W off her feet again, hope I have the chance.

Sorry guys.

CBK