How did "the three generations of Wheres" (quoting T, loved it ) enjoy their day out?
Are you planning anything special for tomorrow?
(((Huggy Hug)))
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
I hope all of you Moms out there had a wonderful day. Mine was pretty busy. Got up and gave D2 a bath so she'd look squeaky clean when she saw her daddy (I had gotten her hair all cut off this week... up to her shoulders so I wanted her to look super cute)... did a couple loads of laundry.. went grocery shopping.. H came over and brought me a gift. Flowers (white roses - my favourite) and the first season of "Big Love".. which is a show I'd never had the chance to see but really wanted to. H then took D2 and I out for mother's day lunch.. then treated me to Star Bucks.. then we wandered around the mall... came back.. barbequed dinner.. watched a movie with D2.. put her to bed.. watched "Lost" episode from this past Thursday. and then he left. So overall a good and busy day.
I don't know about all of you.. but even though there is a lot of positive interaction going on (and I am grateful for that.. because I most certainly prefer it to anger or ignoring) I am just SOOOOO TIRED of limboland. I am in control of my destiny. I always put D2's and my interests as priority.... I am planning for hers and my future... I'm going to sell my house and move back to the city and rent an apartment for a while... this will allow H an opportunity to not blame living in the burbs for why he doesn't want to be home with us... but most importantly this will allow me to have some personal time where when I commute it takes 2.5 to 3 hours out of every week day... so I had no time for me.. I would get D2 to daycare.. commute to work... work... commute back to daycare and pick up D2. Nowhere in the schedule was there time for me. By living in the city that should save me 1.5 to 2 hours of time EVERY DAY!! And I deserve that. I've told my Mom of the plan to sell the house and rent.. and she ALWAYS stands by me in whatever decisions I make.. but I do fear telling my Dad. He's the one that wants me to just get separated/divorced and move on with my life.
Gosh, I just went on a huge ramble and I don't even know what my point was... but I'm getting ready to leave the house with D2... We're going to the mall and then we're going to meet a girlfriend for lunch. The in-laws are coming again today and will likely spend the night (again) so I'm not sure I'll be able to get back on until tomorrow night.
I hope you are all doing great and that your families are happy & healthy (especially you K/M/S if you're reading this)!
Hugs, W2G
PS. Dinner with my Mom was great.. and she was pleasantly surprised that D2 and I were there with my sister.
PSS. I also dropped a bouquet of roses for H's Mom since I was in hometown on Friday.. as an early Mother's Day gift.
wow!!! that is AWESOME!!! I am very excited for your decision. I totally know what you mean about the commute!! In Atlanta, when I moved here I decided to find an apartment a mile from school. My commute is like 5-10 minutes on my bike. It really changes your life to reclaim your time and not spend 15 hours or more a week, like a part time job, just getting back and forth from work.
You sound like you are doing SO well!! Keep making decisions for you and your daughter! What are your recent thoughts about your career?
I have a webinar on resume writing today.. I've given myself until the end of May to get my resume where I need it to be and then will start "networking" (something I'm not so comfortable with) and putting my resume out there for posted jobs.
I look forward to my move but dread it at the same time. We bought this home with so much love in our hearts and hope for our futures so it's difficult. But it will be alright.
Journalling
I'm not feeling all that positive lately. I know that I should and I'm sure that if I was standing outside of the situation it would seem that we're making progress... but it just sucks being here.
I really don't have much of value to speak about on my thread and I find that a bit disheartening. I know my thread is like a diary.. for me to get my feelings out.. but I don't feel all that great about my R right now (with H being on the cusp of his super busy season).. but I do feel I'm a good person and a good catch with an unknown future.. just find it so confusing that the person that "loves" me doesn't feel like I'm enough or that I fit.
I'm sure that's just my view on it.. but I can't be the only one that feels like no matter how amazing they are that it isn't enough.
) enjoy their day out?