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Nice to have you back Sage.

I had to start my Mom on an anti-psychotic last Friday, she is getting way out there now.

I thought it was beginning to help until today when she went bonkers on me. This along with me having debilitating abdominal pain all day, along with some some bleeding.

Then my H came by to take me to our appointment with a bankruptcy attorney. Yep, another fun issue.

And then of course there is the whole business of my H moving out, part time and conditional, but all the same, he will be gone more than not. And I can't be sure that he will ever come back to us.

I felt his distance and saw it in his face from the moment he arrived to the moment he left. I'm afraid I didn't have my DB cap screwed on nearly tight enough. I could feel my world collapsing and the day had drained the life force from my being.

My little male dog is crying right now because he keeps waiting for his daddy to come back. This too breaks my heart.

I feel like I'm vacating my body.

Jeannine

((((((((((((((((Jeannine))))))))))))))))))

Shiny

Jeannine -- I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. You have so much going on right now....

Quoting Jeannine:

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I felt his distance and saw it in his face from the moment he arrived to the moment he left. I'm afraid I didn't have my DB cap screwed on nearly tight enough. I could feel my world collapsing and the day had drained the life force from my being.

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A preemptive comment perhaps but please, don't ASSume anything about his "distance" hon. About what it "means".

Sage

Jeannine,

I am so sorry to hear about all this. Im sending you out big HUGZ because need some. All I can say is Keep working someday this will all get better.

Lee

Jeannine - take things one at a time, girlfriend. One step, and put everything aside. Deal with "non-H" issues first, and give him some time. You don't have to deal with it all at once. You are strong enough to make it through, I know it.

Hi Jeannine,

No advice just support! Don't know what to say as feel so lost myself.

{{{{{{{{Jeannine}}}}}}}}

Sage,

"I suspect you are doing a balancing act right now"

A balancing act to be sure.

"I see that many of your BB friends have circled you and offered up comfort."

A circle of warmth and support like I've never experienced before. I really don't know what I would do without you all. There are not enough words to express my gratitude for all the kind and caring people here.

"because you will have stared your "don't leave me" demon square in the eye and realized that you will be ok."

Yes, I did face that demon square in the face, but as of yet, I have not realized that I will be ok.

Jeannine

Tal,

I know that you understand what it feels like to be in this situation. Your strength and perservance is part of my survival picture while I try to keep my balance.

I wish he would go to a counselor, however, that is highly unlikely.

Jeannine

Shiney,

You've handled so much devastation, I mean multiple bombings! Jeesh!!!
And yet, somehow, you've managed to rise above it all with spunk and humor in tact.

I'm keeping a look out for your footsteps.

Jeannine

Kelli,

I know you are right, I just have to somehow wrangle me up some life force. This new health problem is complicating an already complicated mess.

Hope you continue to see progress in your own situation.

Jeannine