I think the separation can be good sometimes. Like I have said before, without it I couldn't have truly detached...and I believe H and I would be in a totally different place right now.
With that said....I think I fell into a trap of H and I being too good of friends if that makes sense. He was getting all the benefits of marriage without any of the responsibility. Let him miss you.
You sound like you are ready for this and you have a gameplan. ((((Abbey))))
That is a worry for me... why buy the cow if the milk is free etc. That all said... without giving away the game plan,... I'm going to give this man my all.
I better get a bloody Caribbean vacation out of this
Abbey
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
Hey... I'm doing ok. Actually better than I expected living on my own.
I'm sleeping ok with the meds... and have started my course tonight.
Even decorated my guest bathroom with a bright lemon yellow and deep rich blue towel and 2 little picture prints I saw at the discount store. Grand total... 14 bucks
He's been over 2 times - the night I moved in and Tues to help move in my TV (too heavy to lift on my own), gotten 2 emails, 2 phone calls, did one breakfast. I doubt he'll recognize our anniversary to'row (ouch)... but I'm going to just go about my day.
He's going to call me Sunday morning for our "date" officially, I assume. We'll see. He seemed almost distant and uncomfortable here *shrug*... to be honest, I feel rather detached from him right now. I'm actually content in a peculiar kind of way... as long as I don't think about him that is.
"Going to bed" ... is probably the hardest part of the day. Thats when I miss him. Told the T that this is when it hits me that this sep is so e'ffing pointless in my opinion. But... since he hasn't come pounding at the door at 3 am professing undying love for me and promising me that hot spot vacation... guess I'm here for a while yet. My T's happy with my attitude... I"m happy she made me get meds. *grin*
My feet and back hurt, I'm full of bruises (Cipralex has that as a side effect... I bruise easy)... and I even tested out my newfangled front load washer last night. Geeze... old dog... new tricks
Heading to your thread to catch up with your week Michelle.
Abbey
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
Anyone else have a photo in your bedroom of you and the wayward spouse?
(I put one up).
Abbey
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
I still have our wedding photo on the front of my planner (it has a photo slot). We never had photos up in our bedroom. I haven't put up any living by myself, nor has my H.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
H still has a photo of us on his desk... or he did last week at least.
The anniversary passing last week has really knocked me on my rear. Got lucky and got a doc appt today... gonna see if she'll up the meds a little more.
The "dinner date" happened Sunday... he mentioned looking at what movies might be available... the one he wanted to see wasn't released yet... there was effort there at least. He seemed tired, I was too.
Thinking back.. his posture was kinda slouched when he walked back to his car. I hope I muster the patience for him to miss me. Mean time, I tell his picture goodnight... tell him I love him there... and try to go to sleep quickly.
Abbey
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
